My life

CHANGE OF BLOG !!!!!

2009-09-01T23:54:00.000-07:00

Hello all my readers

im no more using blogspot, i got an upgrade =)

i have my very own website =) check it out

http://whynotsicx.com/

New look

2009-08-23T22:55:00.000-07:00

I think its about time that my blog needed a new look

made it all black =), cause im black, lol

enjoy reading =)

Fairytale =)

2009-08-23T07:30:00.000-07:00

I forgot how long was it
since I last heard you telling me your favorite story, that fairy tale
I have been thinking for a very long time, I’m beginning to feel paranoid
Did I make any mistakes again?

You told me with the tears in your eyes, that fairy tales are all lies
It’s impossible for me to be your prince charming
maybe you will not understand
until the moment comes when you say you love me
the stars in my sky, are beginning to shine and shimmer
I’m willing to be, in the fairytale with you
the angel you love
open my arms wide, let it become wings to protect you
You have to believe
believe that we will be like the fairytale
with happiness and joy as the ending
everything is our beautiful ending…
can i be your prince charming?

A Grilled Chicken with an Asian Flavor

2009-08-17T08:59:00.000-07:00

rToday i was kinda bored, so i decided to cook =) i cooked Oriental Barbecued Chicken
it was simple to make, not that hard
just had to marinade the chicken with soy sauce, honey dark Sesame Oil, ginger and garlic for about 4 hours
after that just grilled it
it turned out alright, the smell was awesome !!!
even my dad said that it was nice =P, lol
but it was a bit salty, should lay off the soy sauce, we learn from our mistakes =)

WITH THE GRAVY

THE CHICKEN !!! =)

Normal

2009-08-16T09:51:00.000-07:00

Looks like i dint touch this blog for a long time, and now its time for an update
looks like most ppl say my poems are very emo and they dont like it, so for the time being, im going to be a normal blogger and blog about their life and events that seem important to them

Ermmmmm
Owh ya, i start working out recently, some of you might be laughing, specially gopal !!
but laugh all u want, i dont give a fuck about what u think, lol
The reason that made me start working out is because "somebody" gave me the motivation that i needed =)
Thank you *******

My daily routine is, its kinda boring, wake up at 12pm, eat, exercise,bath, sleep, exersice, bath, eat, online, sleep
i know im a pig, hahahaha
going to change it soon =)

Thanks to my cousin that will be down here for about a month, im going to start training with him =)

My goal is to get a killer body before next year !!!

Btw, u guys should check out P90X
its a killer homework out, do it for 90 days, and u will get a what u worked for
it comes with a routine to follow and a diet to follow, ill update a post about p90x when i start it =)

wish me luck

p/s... thank you again to that person that gave me the motivation !!!!!!!!! =)

I wish that you can

2009-07-20T11:42:00.000-07:00

I wish that you can lend me your ear when i need somebody to talk to
I wish that you will come to me and ask me if everything is alright
I wish that you will at least ask me how was my day
I wish that you would call me, wanting to know what am i doing
I wish that you can care for me as i care for you
I wish that you will close your eyes and say love is blind, because it really is
I wish that you wont ignore me when i need you the most
I wish that you can be my light in the dark
I wish that you will carry me up when i fall
I wish that you can tell me all your deepest secrets
I wish that you can take me to a deeper conversation
I wish that you smile at me every time we meet
I wish that you come to me first if you have a problem
I wish that you like me as how i like you
I wish that you find happiness in your life
I wish that you live forever till worlds end
I wish that you can give me a present, even though its not a special day
I wish that you would text me when you are bored
I wish that you would take the effort to understand me better, like how i do to you
I wish that you will one day hold my hand, and call me your guy

you can keep on wishing, but it aint coming true, no matter how hard you try, it will never come true, you can never force somebody to love you or like you, it all depends on both individuals, no matter how much love and affection you show somebody else and you have to get back the same thing, the person might give you back what you gave, or that person might just....well, u know where it ends =).

p/s, Before you fall, remember to think before you fall, you never know what awaits you at the end. It might be good or evil. Its all a matter of opinion, its ur wish, i would say, follow your heart, but......are you me???

Round Round Round

2009-07-17T11:13:00.000-07:00

I saw this girl
my world turned
round round just round my head
beautiful girl
nothing else to see
just you and me girl, can we be girl
sitting down, holding hands
awww, thats sweet girl, love your smile
baby girl u look fine
ill cross the finish line to be ur man
nobody else can get in my way
you and me girl, thats were we at
haha, if only that could happen

girl you are my world
you are my sun
you are my moon
just seeing you makes me go round round round
just round round round
just round round round
never ending round round round

Hey girl lets make this short and sweet
these few lines is going to about you, everything you
you light up everything when its dark
your touch is the greatest cure there is
lets get this down rite now
will you spend that night with me
the night that all have been waiting for
can i be the one that you pick girl
will you pick me? owh pls girl, thats all im asking for
i might not be the person for you
i might not be ur prince charming
i might not be the brightest of the bunch
so what do u say girl? am i the one?

girl you are my life
you are my soul
you are my doll
just seeing you makes me go round round round
just round round round
just round round round
never ending round round round

haha, thats all i got to say
there isnt anymore
this sound a little dum
cause im a bum
and i was bored
good nite people
sweet dreams
remember girl, think about it =)

-SicX™-

Bored =)

2009-07-13T02:59:00.000-07:00

Why oh why cant i be all so perfect?
Why oh why do i have to have some wrong in me?
why oh why do i have to treat people so good, when i get nth in return?
I keep asking my self why oh why
Trash trash trash
Being used when people need me, as a substitute
"can u come with me bla bla bla bla bla, i got no body to go with"
i do as people want, hoping that they will at least give some back
why oh why do i have to be a naive
why oh why dont i open my eyes
why oh why do i try so hard
the pain is undescrible, it like a thousand needles poking the heart
i like the old days, the old days were fun
it was just me and the blank space
my mind and heart becoming one
dammm, what would i give to get back those old days =)
dammm, if only =)

The One

2009-06-16T03:12:00.000-07:00

Is there such thing as the One
Will we be able to solve the sum?
Nobody is perfect, u can never find the perfect one
If everybody is perfect, wont the world be not fun?
You just have to work on that person
Cause no body is perfect
If we wait and wait for the One
we will end up old and numb
because the one dint come
Give the person a chance, prove to be the best that person will
everybody has their pros and cons
Opposites attract i say?
we dont know, we will never know
because life has its ups and downs
Surprising us every time
We will never know what will happen next
wait and dont rush
fall into the hole with to much lust
never to come out from that crunch
1 word, 1 day, 1 moment, 1 step
Thank you for giving me the best day of my life =)

Raindow !!! wheeeeeee~~ =)

2009-05-28T09:34:00.000-07:00

Slow is everything i see in now
This feeling, with out drinking the sin water
Its like freedom, no worry's
everything sweet, nothing bitter
We Must not worry about a thing
Everything is good, and good it will be
Lights i see off and on, they smile at me =)
They saw, u will do fine, just be happy, and jump
Freaked out i was by this lights, i was like
Waaaaazzzzz super cool talking lights
you look hot i said, hot like the sun
Are u the sun i asked the bright light
No, im just in ur happy free mind =)
Head all light and woozy from the effect of 3 !!!!
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~~~~~~~~~~~~
saying, this is my massage to you , ohh ohh ohohoho
Monkey Man, woot woot
Run run run like the fat wind go gust you are
Sing like the fat lady on Oprah
Bed, looks so nice, i might just jump on you and like stone
Dance on u will if i have to, because i love to dance
TekkKKTOTOTOTOOTOT ~~~~~
Robot, robot from the skys, flying in to my head
i see them, jumping up and down like the happy like big bundle of joy the are for the rest of life
Woman no, we wont cry
cause we are gay gay gay gay
gay not homo gay, but happy gay
Lesbo happy !! (random moment)
i remember when we use to talk long long hours
i know it was pointless, never the less, i have smile on my face =))))
ok, now is time to get out of happy time, and sleep
nitey nite, good nite, i love u bitch !!!, i love you JPS ( its a guy thing )

What??

2009-05-23T12:07:00.000-07:00

when i told you that, my life went down the drain
every time i think about it, it rains
needles poking my body brings pain
ever step up make, kills me

getting my life back together
its not easy, it is not, trust me
should i or should i not
you made me distance my self from society
people noticed my weakness
rejected by society, a social reject
they are not rejecting me, its my self that is rejecting society
they are trying to help, but im not giving them a chance
but if i tell, they will call me a weak link
i dont want to burden ppl with my problems
half of them wont fucking care
i dont blame them, its my life, not theirs
why should they care, they have their own problems to handle
im just one of ur toys, u play with me when u need me
now i know how the toys of Toy Story feels like
used like a used condom
should i or should i not?
I know this affection may be temporary
for night-like behavior, it is necessary
But for tonight, im not doing it right
But you got my number if you like it or not
delete if u may, i dont care
for now, byebye
goodbye my friend
you have "been" the ONE for me
let me rephrase that "been"

How to roll your eyes

2009-05-15T09:16:00.001-07:00

This is a convo between be and Ros, now i know how to roll my eyes !!
hahahahah

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
everydoes

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
muahahahahahahah

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
hahah very funny

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
*rolls eyes* o.0

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
ur eyes can roll?

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
walau

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
how u do it?

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
lesson no 1

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
look up

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
lesson no 2

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
move your eyeballs 45 degrees either to the right or left

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
than?

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
lesson no 3

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
move your eyeballs 90 degress to the direction you made in lesson 2

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
lesson no 4.

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
close your eyes

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
than?

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
note that you should look annoyed while doing this

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
and while rolling your eyes it has to be in one smooth flow

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
good luck

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
lol

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
says the sifu

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
sakit la

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
GAMBATEH

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
keep trying and you shall succeed

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
i will train hard, and 1 day, we will have a rolling eye battle, winner takes all

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
winner ends up with an eye injury

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
so its a dangerous sport?

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
highly dangerous

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
always take safety measures

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
such as ice bags on the ready

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
and helmets just in case the sports men and women terpening after rolling their eyes byk2

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
hahaha

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
so the conclusion, eye rolling is a extream sport

P/S, Dont blame me if u try this and kill urself

If your fucking 555 than im fucking 666

2009-05-12T08:07:00.000-07:00

you like to love, i like to hate
you like to laugh, i hate to laugh
you smile, i stare
you think your a 555, im a 666
you think you hot, im fucking ugly
you think your all that, i know that ur all that
i love you, u hate me
i want to be, u reject everything
I cry, u laugh at me pointing fingers
saying " look at the guy, he is a fucking loser, he thinks that we can be"
fuck that, fuck you, fuck everybody, fuck the world
i know im not Mr.Big or ur Mr. Right
i know i cant be the one
i know that i will never be any body's 1
useless i am to this world
because i called it stupid and a wanted to fuck it
I talk to much
I think to much
I hope to much
I dont everything to much
I fucking Hate it
Why be alone baby, when we can be together, i say that in my dreams
Even my dreams laugh at me, saying, LOSER !!!!!
deep inside i hope u feel it to, what i feel, but, i hope
and normally, what i hope for, never comes true
So, so, so, so, it goes on, and on ,and on, till the end of time

-FiN-

The Truth

2009-05-11T08:20:00.001-07:00

my day is made when i lay my eyes on you
even if you dont care, i do still
far before this day, everything was fine
knowing that you forgotten me and me the same
but, every time we meet, my feelings build
calling you names, it wont help
i was plain dum and stupid, thats the truth
what people say is the truth, and the truth hurts
dont listen to the heart, always ends in pain
dont listen to people, some just bring you down
dont listen to me or others?, than to whom?
this is an answer that ill never find out
to be the old or new, thats the question
i really dont know, i really dont care
never chase, you will lose the race
never never, dont dont, i can say
now now, do do, i cant say
into this black abysses, i fall now and than
hoping for you to bring me out, that day never comes
somebody i need who thinks the same way, a friend
somebody i need when im down, a friend
i just need one that understand
now, this is the truth

Shawty whats ur name?

2009-05-04T11:21:00.000-07:00

Sad to say im only in town for the night to see you
I got like eight hours left before my ride arrives
Im trying to stay respectful n polite to ya
you can tell me go to hell if you like.
now I ain't one of them people, getting mad cuz you ain't intrested
now dont get me wrong, im going to look when you pass,
but I ain't the one to pull on you arm or stop you
I ain't attackin unless I get a signal first,
I ain't the one thats gonna play for fun..
before is over you gonna say,
Fuck you
believe it...

I like to see you an independent girl
I like that you gotcha your life and your mind straight
but you say u gotta lame ass person.. in your life,
and he cant get the mental n physical part right,
you playin wit his mind but his mind wont bite
they dont talk shit n dont hit it how you like,
I just want the first right or refusal,
when that person wana catch a movie
you just say your busy
boo boo boo,
you said he is not the one,
but mama shit is like for real,
but that thrust stays harder than a brick
but all you need is to live your life
i respect that and let it be,
time is something to be valued
my time is moving fast, so thats why i asked you,
Shawty whats ur name?

Im not going to waste these words about a girl

2009-05-02T10:35:00.000-07:00

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

I TOLD YOU IM NOT GONIG TO WASTE THESE WORDS ABOUT A GIRL, ITS ABOUT SQUARE "FUCKING" ROOTS

just felt like doing it

2009-04-28T11:06:00.000-07:00

Every time when we are together, i feel safe
Every time i look at you, i so want to share my life with you
Every time i talk to you, i know that you understand
But every time, i know that we can never be
You, dont feel safe with me
You, dont want to share your life with me
You, think i dont understand you
But how will i know?, im just guessing i guess
Every time you look at me, you just see me as a friend
You tell ur friends, im just a friend
I try to forget about you, but its hard
being next to you, is like being beside an angel
how can u resist an angel?

Your eye, mesmerize me, seeing stars on earth
Your smile, brings a smile on my face, even on the darkest days
Your touch, it can bring life
Your presence, is like the sun, a shining ray that goes a million miles

Dreams of u i have, dreams of us being together, having the time of our life
It felt so real, i never want to wake up for it
if only dreams came true
i will have this face the whole time =)

When you say hello to me, inside im screaming i love you
when u tell me something about ur self, i feel special
happy because u told me something about ur self
thinking to my self, yes i know you better
but its all put to waste, cause it will never happen between us
I'm sittin' here all by myself
Just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
Just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
To leave the rest of the world behind
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
That you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
And the more I want you here with me
I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

all that is said, is said
there is nothing else to be said
i just hope
i just pray
i just wish
that you feel the same way too

Tik Tok, Tik Tok

2009-04-07T09:58:00.000-07:00

Times passes by, stop and stare i did
try ed i "did", but all was put to waste
all the praying, all the sweat was for nothing
all the smiles, all the laughs was for nothing
everything i did was for nothing
Thinking that, i will get something in return
nothing came
Tik Tok, Tik Tok
nothing came
Just run back to corner that we met i will
hoping, u notice that im missing from ur life
Maybe, just maybe u might come back to the place that we meet
im not moving, until you do
people talk about me, the guy that is waiting at that corner
maybe ill get famous, because im the guy that cant be move
but i dont care, i just want you to come back to the place that we meet
Tik Tok, Tik Tok
Times passes by, stop and stare i will

Going loco

2009-03-31T06:56:00.000-07:00

Wheeeeee =)

SicX : Hello dick head
Vinod : yes, what do you want?
SicX : ur a fucking fag =P
Vinod : yea i know
SicX : erm...want to know why
Vinod : yea..why?
S :because you dont have the "stuff" that people have
V : yea, i know, i blame the place that i came from
S : you will just never get it
V : yea, i know
S : you think you know everything???
V : yea, i know
S : Why dont you just stop, u know you cant do it
V : im trying, but i cant, its just me, stupid old me
S : i really dont know what to say, you try so hard, but it gets u no where, i think u want to much
V : yea, i think ur right for once
S : Im always right, im fresh
V : what should i do??
S : 2 things u can do, confront or just hide in ur fucking shell
V : the shell that i fuck with???
S : =_=''', ur just stupid
V : hahahahah, i know
S : ermm...what should we do now??
V : i dont know, im bored...
S : you are always, you fag
V : errmmmm... waaaazzz aaaaaa ~~~~
S : shut the fuck up, im trying to think
V : hahahahahahahah

it just ends here, after this, it leads to violants, somebody died, and you have to find out who
thank you..lol

March 26, latin america night

2009-03-26T12:02:00.000-07:00

waazzz aaaa !!!
sry for the long blank stage in my blog, just dint had anything to write about

thurday, HELP rush team did a event at Supperclub, yes, that club that i got waisted , for forgetting her...hahahah
overall it was fun =)
my fun start after the event..lol
started out with a drink from the old and trusty KK mark !!!! (U know la what u can get there ^^)
after that a dance battle with some taylor people
danced danced and danced
after that some problems happened

i and aaron had a talk
and the chinese man said, pick 1 and only 1
i was to tipsy to give him a good answer, so i told him, ill tell him tom
and i just notice, i cant be my cous =(
I DONT HAVE THE HEART TO DO WHAT HE DOES
well, lets just see what happens
it might turn out good, or might turn out bad, who knows
just go with the flow
And bros b4 hoes
"dude", its urs, i dont wan to get in ur way, it is all urs, it was just a lust anyway, i think
i really dont know what i talking about, i think it was the "Thai Song", hahahahah
it was fucking strong wei

p/s KK mark rocks !!!!!!!!!!

Basshunter

2009-03-14T10:39:00.000-07:00

Angel In The Night

You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
But that is not enough, will I ever be by your side

Your hair is dancing in the wind
Your eyes are burning up my skin
And I'm so happy when I see, that you are smiling back at me

You're leaving burnmarks on the ground
Thank you God for what I've found
I don't know how, I don't know why
But you're my angel in the night

You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
Let me hold you now, just like days before you start to cry
You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
But that is not enough, will I ever be by your side

I try my best to satisfy, but all you do is wave me goodbye
I don't know what I'm gonna do, but I'm so crazy about you
Even if I don't know where to start
Even if my love is tearing me apart
I just know that you and me
We were always meant to be

Now you're gone

Now you're gone
I realise my love for you was strong
And i miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone with you're pictures hanging on the wall

Is this the way it's meant to be?
Only dreaming that you're missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I'll go crazy now you're gone

There's an empty place in my heart
Without my anna it will break apart
It won't heal, it never fades away
I'll be thinkin' 'bout you everyday

All I Ever Wanted

All I ever wanted
Was to see you smiling
I know that i Love you
Oh baby why dont you see?

All i ever wanted
Was to see you smiling
All I ever wanted
Was to make you mine
I know that I love you
Oh baby why don't you see
That All I ever wanted
Was you and me

I'm so alone
Here on my own
And I'm waiting for you to come
I want to be a part of you
Think of all the things we could do
And everyday
Youre in my head
I want to have you in my bed
You are the world
Your in my eyes
All i ever wanted in my life

I Miss You

I don't wanna feel
The way that I do
I just wanna be
Right here with you
I don't wanna see
See us apart
I just wanna tell you straight from my heart

I miss you

I can't sleep, I just can't breathe.
When your shadow is all over me
Don't wanna be a fool in your eyes
When all we had was built on lies

What would it take, for you to see
To make you understand that I always believe
You and I, can make it through,
You still know I can't get over you

Black

2009-03-13T10:39:00.000-07:00

Black is the colour is see every day
day and night i see black
black is my heart
black is my soul
black is my life
Life is my black hole
never ending with pain in every inch
what will i find at the end
i will nvr know
just wait in my shell, i will do
waiting, and keep waiting i do
but my dreams nvr come true
for you, it will nvr come true
nvr i get what i want, that is so black
red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, violet?? NO
my life is not a rainbow
i wish it was
but i nvr see that coming true
what the fuck im i talking about
rainbows?? fuck, something is wrong with me
im just stupid, yea i know u know
just a stupid ass hole
nothing better to do in his life
just be a stupid dick
black black black
eishh, whatever la.....

Lamb of God - Laid to Rest

2009-03-12T07:16:00.000-07:00

If There Was A Single Day I Could Live,
A Single Breath I Could Take,
I'd Trade All The Others Away.

The Blood's On The Wall,
So You Might As Well Just Admit It.
And Bleach Out The Stains,
Commit To Forgetting It.
You're Better Off Empty And Blank,
Then Left With A Single Pathetic Trace Of This.

Smother Another Failure
Lay This To Rest

console Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself,
See Who Gives A Fuck.

Absorb Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself.

I'll Chain You To The Truth,
For The Truth Shall Set You Free.
I'll Turn The Screws Of Vengeance,
And Bury You With Honesty.

I'll Make All Your Dreams Come To Life,
And Slay Them As Quickly As They Came,

Smother Another Failure
Lay This To Rest
console Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself,
See Who Gives A Fuck.

Absorb Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself.

See Who Gives A Fuck

FAILURE
If There Was A Day I Could Live,
If There Was A Single Breath I Could Take,
I'd Trade All The Others Away,
I'd Trade All The Others Away.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=34AV3mos89w

Ipoh Trip

2009-03-09T07:56:00.000-07:00

This weekend, i spent my time at Ipoh, cous bday
it was fun !!!

1st day we went for left for dead, visit a ghost house, play in a play ground, throw bottles at shops..hahahah

2nd day was his bday party, normal family thing, after that
we went clubbing, the best thing about clubs in ipoh, u can wear anything and be any age..hahah
they don't check ur ID =)
had a few drinks at the club
after the club, we ate cheesy kai (cheese chicken) yummy !!
after the kai, we went to dharma's house for another drinking session
talk talk talk talk
went home around 6am something
still talking in the house
we slept when sun rise

3rd day, nth much happened, i was sleeping almost the whole day
at night we went to see watchman at jusco
the movie was ok
after the movie, we went to eat

4th day, went home to KL

so, that was my weekend, it was fun, but i used up a lot of cash =(

Selling Xsjado team skates

2009-02-26T20:42:00.001-08:00

selling xsjado team skate, still is good condition
i was not a heavy skater, just normal grinding
the skates has new blank wheels
size 10.5, so if ur size 10 or 11, should be fine
selling for rm500

Im so happy !!! New shoes !!!

2009-02-22T09:11:00.000-08:00

ill make this post short and sweet, cause i have 2 sleep (mid terms tom)
y i am so happy?
i got 3 pairs of shoes !!!
its super fresh, 3 converse shoes babe !!!
my parents were in AUS for a week ( Help my bro there )
i asked them 2 buy Converse shoes cause the Converse shoes is Malaysia Suck balls all together came up 2 about RM 550
owh ya, b4 my parents went to AUS, they got a new camera, 10 mega pix =)
just all i got from AUS, not shirts or pants, no quicksliver or bilabong
I DONT CARE !!, i happy with the converse i got
I think i got 16 pairs of shoes now, i think, i lost count =(

Black with gold lines - Rm125

Purple - Rm 125

Shining Magenta - Rm300 (when u wear this shoe, the feeling is nice, its not like any other converse shoe, its like u are wearing a nike or puma shoe, the soul of the shoe is thick and its light)...i will take very very very very good care of this shoe =)

BLING BLING BABE !!!!

My new babies !!!

If Only You Knew

2009-02-21T05:56:00.000-08:00

If only you knew how happy, you have made me
how important you are to me,
and how cherished you are in my heart...

If only you knew the warmth of your face,
the sparkle in your eyes,
and the radiance of your smile...

If only you knew how safe i feel when I'm near you,
the lengths i would go to make you happy,
and the strength of my feelings for you...

If only you knew how lonely i am when we're apart,
how luck i feel to be a part of your life,
and how wonderful you truly are...

If only you knew what you mean to me,
you would look me in the eyes
and simply say...
" i love you, too"

Random update

2009-02-20T17:23:00.000-08:00

The pass 2 weeks was ok
some good days, some bad days
i have been missing dance class for the pass 2 weeks =(
but its ok, cause Jacob was not teaching, i think he is busy with shows
i miss dancing !!!!
I got some very good dance experience last week
i was dancing Malay Contemp , at perak
Represented HELP
it was fun, but i missed Valentine day =(
nothing to cry about, i dint have a date n'way
came back on 15th morning 4am =_=
reach home, slept for about an hour
then straight to the airport, to send my bro to AUS
my parents went along 2
i had to stay at my grandma's house for a week, it was boring !!!
but now, 21 feb, im back home, home sweet home
was talking to my bro on the phone yesterday
he said i will be very happy when my parents come back =)
i wonder what they bought, i think it is a shoe, Converse !!!!!!
today i go mid terms !!!!
WTF wei !!!
and i am so not ready !!!
FISH STICKS !!

p/s i got a 2nd mother and that person is jovita..muahahahah

For a princess

2009-02-12T16:20:00.000-08:00

Fun we have togther, me and you

nobody else can replace you, because u are ireplaceble

no car, money, person can give me the joy you give me

when im with you, there is ntg else 2 do, just stare i do

ur eyes, they tell a million storys

never, i will understand you, cause you are like no other

unique in ur own way

that what makes you, you

few years ago, i saw this girl

i was shy (Smiles)

to shy 2 talk to this girl sitting all alone at the Conner

when i did not see her anymore, every weekend

i felt regret for not making a move

years passed, but 1 fine day i saw a girl that reminds me of that girl back then

can it be?, its just 2 good 2 be true

but it was true, dreams really do come ture

just belive and u will get what u want

keep faith, dont lose it

keep trying, dont give up

keep praying, dont stop

keep....well, just keep everything you belive in

just seeing you makes my day

you are like a princess, maybe you are

only wants the best, that why it is so hard to please you

i dont know if im the rite person for you

but if only you would know how i really feel

you would know, if only you can see what is inside me

till the next we meet, you made my day

Friday sucks !!

2009-02-07T05:25:00.000-08:00

FRIDAY

Lets see what happen
i went 2 college early, hoping jiunn came early, we wanted 2 do something
he over slept,hahah, i dont blame him, he also dint have any class that day
after that, i was sitting down at the HELP hall way with my psp waiting for class
class started, i went in late, dont know for what reason
bla bla bla bla at class
eh wait, its not bla bla bla
hahahah
study skills is fun !!
its like my motivation class =)
than i and Fier went Spinky, the other dint come, all went back home
and now he is a official spinky member, that makes him kinky
he sent me 2 KJ
listened 2 emo songs
OWH YA, IM ALONE IN THE HOUSE UNTIL MONDAY !!! woot woot
went back, bath, left for Andrew's party at soul out
went there, ate, talk to andrew, meet old friend
after that went becca's house
left becca's house

WENT 2 SUPPER CLUB
this is where the fun happens !!!
Drank like fuck!!!, i wanted to get drunk for some reasons
take my CHILL PILLS =)
dance
dance with random chicks
haizzzz
it was fun
can home by cab
gopal stayed over my place
when i went home, terus tidur
but when i was going to bed
i felt something in my stomach
i ran 2 the window and VOMITED !!! woot woot !!!
hahahahahah
slept, woke up and i missed class !! =(...damn, i was like WTF !!!

hahahah..so thats my Friday, it sucked

My life

2009-02-03T03:30:00.000-08:00

Today was ok, nth much happened
went to college, bla bla bla
classes ended at 2
after that we went for lunch, then went back 2 HELP
i and kat had 2 work on our IT project
went home with kat
reached Majid Jamik
it was raining
i walked in the rain
i got wet
went in the bus
sleep in the bus
the bus was smelly
woke up, legs started to hurt
got home, around 7, went for lunch, i dint have lunch at college
now, im infront of my PC, just looking at it
well, thats my life, plain, nothing special, nothing interesting, just plain old me

My wonderful dream

2009-01-31T22:30:00.000-08:00

i had this wonderful dream just now
it was me with a girl that i think i know, im not sure, cause it was very fuzzy..but i think i know that person
i was talking 2 her about something

than she ask me "how do you know what is real and what is not real?"
she said "maybe this is an illusion, maybe u are an illusion, even me"
than she kept playing with my mind, going behind me, beside me, in front of me in a blink of an eye
i dint know what was happening, at 1 moment, she was on top of me and i was lying down, she gave me a kiss
she ask me again, "is this an illusion??"..i answered back saying "no, this is not an illusion, its the real thing"
She asked me "how do you know if it is real?"
i told her cause i can feel ur body, your heat, and ur face
she said "NO, this is an illusion", she told me something b4 she left, she said "i must learn 2 tell the difference between reality and fiction"

After that dream, when i woke up, i was thinking, maybe my life is an illusion, i will never know, i must know what i can get and what i cant get, what is real and fake, what feelings are real or fake

lol..well, its only a dream, but it was nice, and the girl was very beautiful, some people many not think so, but everybody has their own taste

IT WAS ONLY A DREAM

Random-ness

2009-01-29T01:11:00.000-08:00

i dont know what 2 write now, no poems, no topic, no pics..
ill just do a recap..hahah

CNY
nth much happen, dint get any ang pow(i'm not Chinese, dint expect anything)
just went back 2 my dads home town, Ipoh
the only interesting thing i did there was DOTA..hahah
played like for 8 hours, i seriously had nothing to do
bought DVD
just about all

I had college on wednesday
most col's are having holidays for a week =(
but its all good, nothing 2 do at home
have been stoning at the house, its better i go to col
get to meet friends and go to the place we all get kinky =)..hahah

Thursday
Today was nice, i dint have math class..
Mr.Joel(math teacher) injured his leg
will be going 2 MOS later
hope everything goes well

till my next post
-SicX out-

Light

2009-01-21T06:59:00.000-08:00

Walking, i keep walking, never knowing what awaits me at the end
is there a end too this road?
ill never know, i just have to find out
A risk i have too take
too find out what nobody can tell me
If i don't, 1 day, i will be asking myself, what was at the end of the road?
Do what my heart says
nothing less, ill just do it
Fail i might, but knowing that i tried, that's the best part
The road looked dark, scary, full with dust
a light i saw at the end, it called out my name
it was hinting me to take that path
shall i take it?, not knowing what is that light
took it i did, it was hard to walk in this road
but, towards the end, it got better
the feeling that ill reach the end, i had in me
i reached the end, what i saw?
i saw the light, it was brighter than the sun
it was beautiful, like nothing i ever seen in my life
i was happy i took that road
now, i know what was at the end
i will live 2 tell this tale
saying "I found the light it my life, I'm always happy when that light is beside me"
*PAUSE*
it all went blank.....
it was a dream, only a dream
i was confused,was that dream a sign for me??
2 find my real light?
I think it was
ill find that road and make it a reality
i will find my light
ill take any chance that i see 2 find this light, searching up, down, left, right
if only this dream was real =)
You would already be in my hands

I'm happy and i dont give a fuck

2009-01-20T05:11:00.000-08:00

happy as i can be
This feeling had evaded me long enough
i finally found it back
im happy i did
IS IT A GIRL U MAY ASK?
nah !!!
im happy cause im free
no worrys, just my self
i like it this way
be my self, not the man wearing a mask
now, that im free
i can focus on things that really mater to me in life
my passion
dint get this feeling in a long time
im lovin it™
i dont care about the things that i cared so much about last time
FUCK IT !!!
my life, my way, on the high way
never let it get in the way of my passion that i love in life
my passion comes 1st, than only you..hahah

i dont give a fuck what people say 2 me
"u cant dance... ur 2 big... did you break a bone?..u look ulgy, when people see you the will run"
they talk 2 much..next time i hear that..ill ask them "wanna battle? ass hole"
i do it cause i love it..i feel good when i do it
no girl, no guy can stop me..even if i suck at it..ill keep on trying, until my body cant handle the pain

the thing that i plan to change in my life now is *****, and i think i can do it
as i said.*******
Guess i can say that im a "jakun"..i dont wan to tell you what makes me a jakun..malukan diri je

HELLO WORLD !!!!

Not to be named

2009-01-18T18:17:00.000-08:00

Sitting down as time flys

tik tok, tik tok, the clock goes

as i pray for time to fly

it never answers my prayers

So am i, still waiting

waiting to be stunned

Stunned by the look that i desire so much

im waiting and still waiting for that too happen

Sitting down on the floor

looking at people passing by

Hoping i see that face

despite all the waiting, it dint come

Listening to our song over and over again

its on loop and ill keep it that way

people know me as the man that can never be moved

only the sight of that face that can make me move

the sight of this person

makes me complete

never less, never more

im PREFECT

this person

when is not in my presents

lost i feel in this small world

not knowing left, right, up, down

forever sitting at the same spot

still praying

still hopeing

maybe, just maybe, she feels the same way too

Stop the Comments !!

2009-01-18T04:56:00.000-08:00

Im just doing this post as a mind opener

I said stop the comments..what comments?
Stop the comments on who is hot and who is not hot
some people like to comment on other people clothing, looks, hair, etc etc
but b4 u do this things...think, by doing this things, u will hurt that persons feelings
that person is a human just like u..everybody has feelings
how u dress, how u look, ur hair..it is all you..be who u are..dont be somebody else
dress how u want..if u like it, good!!..u dont have to change because your fren said u look ulgy in it
and 1 more thing..b4 u comment on others..look in the mirror..do u think you look good??
surely there will be other people in the world commenting about you..so dont simply going around, laughing at people
If u are voted the hottest person alive..then it might be ok..hahah..but nobody can be the hottest person alive..cause everybody has their own taste...
some people like fat, some like thin, some like chubby, some like short, some tall
its ur ****ing choice !!!
what matters?..the thing that matter is you..the thing that makes you, YOU
other thing is weight and looking buff
hahah
take this opened minded ok?
if a person looks so hot !!!..but that person's attitude is like shit..will you go for that person??
ANSWER ME THIS
it does not matter if ur fat..in the long run, the thing that matters is what that is inside of you
i think people just do this to get their "Market" up =)
2 be liked by the other sex

I'm not pointing finger's at anybody..just wanted to do this cause almost every where i go..i here the same thing..i just smile and pretend that im not listening =)

this is a SicX original post™

HELP Orientation Night

2009-01-17T23:02:00.000-08:00

the HELP orientation night was fun
got to meet a lot of new ppl
but i was super sleepy !!
woke up at 5.30..went to col
had class at 10 until 12
went for lunch with Katrin and Chris
at Ali maju..hahah
Chris and Aaron had classes at 2.30
so that leaves me and kat
we both went to the library..wanted to check it out (it was boring)
we both found a book on rock history..=)
compared the old rock stars with our self..
told her some lame jokes passed down by my frens..hahah
and she thinks that she is the QUEEN OF FUNNY ...hahah..(yea rite) =P
after that we did bla bla bla..( nothing much )

at 6.30 the orientation night started..i and aaron were late..cause we were at spinky playing CS
Me, aaron and Kat got picked for the 1st game..it was the island game..dont know how to explain..hahah
we lost =(
owh ya..i got chosen for Fear Factor..wakaka
i had to transfer worms and chicken liver into another box..and i won !!
the dance floor opened late..we danced for awhile..nothing much
Myself, aaron, Katrin and Ding Dong =) were dammm tired ...we stayed in HELP from morning till night..hahah
sorry dint have any pics
u can check out kat's blog or Poh lyn's blog if u guys want to see this pics

http://piggyliciouskat.blogspot.com/
http://www.pohlyn-xoxo.blogspot.com/

Run chicken Run and someday ill catch you

2009-01-15T23:30:00.000-08:00

1 day there was this chicken that i laid my eyes on
The temptation was high in me to get this chicken
i dont know why..but i really wanted this chicken
i started my chase for this chicken
at 1st i dint know what to do with it if/when i catch it
it was hard..well, this is the 1st time that im doing this chicken thing =)
at 1st it was hard, but exciting
its like..it stop ed, i ran to catch it, but as i was about that catch it, it ran =(
i was like WTF..how on earth i am going to catch this thing
i did not want to give up this easy..i kept on trying and trying
i planed every move that i am going to do the next time i meet this chicken..cause i learn from mistakes
Despite all the failing, it was fun..the fun was never giving up, keep on trying for the thing that i want
1 day, i gave it another shot, i have learned this chicken well, i know all of its moves, what will it do next and where will it go
i trapped the chicken..i was confident that i am going to catch the chicken this time
and..at last i caught the chicken !!!
i said to the chicken "hahaha..u think u can run away from me??..now what am i going to do with you??? "

i think there is a lesson to be learned in this story..some of u might understand..some of u guys might not understand...it might mean that or it might not mean that..it ur choice on what u want the lesson of this story to be..ill just let u people figure out the lesson =)

-SicX out-

Im just not ready

2009-01-15T08:34:00.000-08:00

Im just not ready to teach hip hop..
was talking to Jacob on Wednesday
he said that im not ready to teach..
he said that he started teaching 3 years after he became pro!!
3 year!! after pro~~
im not even pro..hahah
but he dint tell it in a bad way..what he said was true..he said that it will be hard for me to explain lines..cause even i dont have good dancing lines (im working on this)..so maybe in a few years i can be like him..hope so =) ...pray for me !!!!

well..im still young..got hope =)
i asked him the average age of a pro dancer at his dance company..he said around 25+
and im only 18..i got a long time 2 go
Jacob might come and teach..but he can only make it on Wednesdays... hope he can make it

today night was fun..went steam boat with Wingz and Ah lue (dance class frens)
talk and talk and talk..lol
went to visit Jacob at the studio after eating..wanted to give him an EGG!!..hahah...but it broke on the way...*sigh*..maybe next time =P
saw 1 dance crew practicing for battle ground..dont know what crew, all girls, so so only..the routine was dull..

oh ya
tomorrow night is orientation night..dont know what are we going to do there..hope it will be fun =)
ill let u guys know what happen on that day

This is the latest pic we took (we have been taking pics every week now days..hahah)

Update time !!

2009-01-13T08:33:00.000-08:00

Poh lyn keep asking me 2 update..so ill update..happy?? =)

erm..what to talk, what to say, what to do

ok la..lets do a recap..hahah
college life is fun..but very hard
have to travel from my house 2 col, takes around 2 hours =(
its not like high school life where u get spoon fed..col is where the real work starts
so far so good..hope it goes well the whole year

having orientation night this coming Friday
i really dont know what u do there
ill let u guys know when i go there..hahah
they said u just go there and chill and meet new frens =)..erm..sounds interesting..hahah

and i MIGHT start a hip hop dance club in college
Joshua said the demand is high for it..hope i can meet the demand..lol
ill be under the dance club..so far there is only a Latin dance club
but my problem is that the Latin club is being couch by a pro dancer
and if couch the hip hop club..wont that be like 1 kinda??..hahah
A wise man said "The best way to learn, is to teach"
i really 1 to do it..but..im having 2nd thoughts
My dance teacher ask me to go ahead with it..he said it is a good way to learn
i think ill just do it la..wish me luck guys !!

-SicX out-

Hip Hop dancing, My passion, My life

2009-01-08T07:01:00.000-08:00

This is a very special post for me
i will tell my readers about the Hip Hop dance culture that i love so much
the history, the influence and the styles
this post might be long, but read it pls, it will make u understand this culture and the beauty of it

The origin

The dance style primarily associated with hip hop is breaking, which appeared in New York City during the early 1970s and truly became a cornerstone (or "element") of hip hop as a culture. Funk styles, such as popping and locking, evolved separately in California in the 1960-70s, but were also integrated into hip hop when the culture reached the West Coast of the United States.

Though breaking and the original funk styles look quite different stylistically, they share many surrounding elements, such as their improvisational nature, the music they're danced to and the way they originated from the streets, mainly within black and Hispanic communities. These similarities helped bring them, and other street dance styles, together under the same sub-culture, and help to keep them alive and evolving today. Yet, this has not been without problems, often involving the media, such as when the movie Breakin' put all various styles under the label "breakdance", causing a great naming confusion that spawned many heated debates.

In the late 1980s, as hip hop music took new forms and the hip hop subculture established further, new dance styles began appearing. Most of them were danced in an upright manner in contrast to breaking with its many ground moves, and were in the beginning light-feeted with lots of jumping. Some moves hit the mainstream and became fad dances, such as The Running Man, but overall they contributed a lot to later hip hop styles, and heavily influenced the development of house dancing.

During the 1990s and 2000s, parallel with the evolution of hip hop music, hip hop dancing evolved into heavier and more aggressive forms. While breaking continued to be popular on its own, these newer styles were danced upright, and draw much inspiration from earlier upright styles. Classifying these newer hip hop styles as a unique dance style of its own has grown common with larger street dance competitions such as Juste Debout, which includes hip hop new style as a separate category for people to compete in. Today, we see many specific styles that first appeared on their own, such as krumping and clown walking, now being danced and accepted within hip hop new style contexts.

All hip hop styles from the 1980s and beyond are sometimes collectively called new school while the distinct styles from the 1960-70s, such as breaking, uprocking, locking and popping, are considered old school. However, this classification is controversial, and often old school hip hop (or, in some areas, hype) is used solely for the late 1580s upright and jumpy hip hop styles, excluding locking, popping and breaking, and new style hip hop for the heavier hip hop styles of today.

p/s i added some links, check it out if u don't know what it means

Influence

James Brown

The godfather of break dancing was, without doubt, the infamous ‘James Brown’. In 1969 Mr Brown was enjoying massive success with "Get on the Good Foot" the subsequent hustle, or dance, craze that followed was the ‘Good Foot’ soon to be renamed the ‘B-Boy’. As anyone who has seen James Brown perform live at concerts or even seen him on television his dance style can only be described as brilliantly energetic. It is this dance style that shaped break dancing and pointed it in new directions. Dance battles were already established when the B-Boy became popular but its high energy and almost acrobatic nature was ideal for the competitive and heated nature of battling. What followed was what is now referred to as old-style breaking. There were no headspins, no windmills, no handglides and certainly no backspins. Old-style breaking consisted of only floor work, or floor rock, which is much more complex to perform due to incredibly complicated leg moves performed at great speed.

Many of u think Micheal Jackson?, but most of u people don't know that Micheal Jackson's idol is James Brown. Micheal used James Brown style of dancing and made it perfect, but Micheal style was based on James Brown..James said "Micheal is a great kid, he took my style of dancing and took it to the next level"

What Break Dancing actually Involves

Break dancing like all dancing involves moving a certain way in time with music. The actual dancing as evolved considerably from the old-style due to the addition of new ideas and techniques. It involves moving the feet sideways and onto the toes, spinning on the knees, head, elbows, hands, and mocking fighting moves (i.e. kung fu).

There are hundreds of moves but 10 of the more frequently used are listed below: 1. Headspin 2. 1990’s 3. Handglides 4. Backwallovers 5. Flare 6. Crab 7. Six step 8. Windmills 9. Backspins 10. Freeze

Controversy

Hip hop dancing is often criticized for the type of music it can be associated with, as some of the main stream rap music can be seen as degrading or overtly sensual in nature.

Today, many dance studios offer hip hop classes of some sort. They might focus on a specific style, such as breakdancing, or combine elements of various street dance styles. As hip hop dancing is such a broad genre, the teacher has much freedom and room for personal interpretation, and often mixes various styles freely, even mixing them with other dance forms such as jazz dance.

Some criticize the type of teaching at dance studios as being too strict and too choreographed, losing important elements such as improvisation and personal interpretation on the students' side. Because of this, some dislike labeling these dance classes as "hip hop" as it might not actually include all aspects of the traditional hip hop dances, especially when the teacher mixes it with dance styles not originally related to hip hop.

Despite the controversy, studio-choreographed hip hop is still widely accepted today by many.

THE PEOPLE THAT PLAN TO MAKE IT BIG !!!, WE WILL DO IT !!

We started together and we will end together

Boring Sial !!!

2009-01-06T06:34:00.000-08:00

haiyo !!!...nothing to do..college studys also nvr start
just sit at the pc..listening to music, chating and thinking
so i decided to write on my blog..hahah (that sounds gay)

lets recap on today...
went to col..had finite maths..it sounds nice..and the teacher also is fresh =)
after had lab..teacher is good but very "garang" wan..haiyo
after that had english with Miss Annie..shes has the same name as my mother..lol
owh ya..she made me and Aaron class rep..we will prove her wrong =P

ok that what happend in college..now lets see..what to talk about..i think, wait (still thinking), ahhhhhhh...ermmmm...
ok la..ill write a poem..hahah
long time dint do this crap
well..lets go

I'm like this feeling i get inside of me
happiness i get when it is there
alot of things can be the factor
to tell u?, i will nvr do, you just have to figure it out ur self
enough to keep you guessing what it is
the answer i think u will nvr find
how on earth to keep this temptation that i want so much
it makes me weak and soft
stealing my heart, that is a crime u know? =)
full with passion and lust
every time i want more
electricity goes in my body when i get this feeling
like a million needles in my body when im with that "somebody"
i like this feeling at times, but it always ends in failure !!
nobody can take ur place in my heart
going on and on until my life ends

Day 1 of being Help-ed

2009-01-05T07:26:00.000-08:00

yea..it was the 1st day =)
ill skip all the crap and start at what happend there
when i reached there, the 1st face i saw was uncle Joshua..hahah
registered
and waited in the theater room
its was super boring to the max..hahah
but after that i meet 3 new friends Aaron, Cheryl and Pohlyn
nice people to be with and fun =)
sorry dint have any pic..my camera is dead
after that we went to eat
owh ya..u can find anything to eat at HELP
i mean anything
u name it
Subway, MCD, pizza hut, etc etc

after that went back to heard more ppl talking
then went and register our subs..i and Cheryl are taking all the same classes and Aaron and Pohlyn are taking the same..but we 4 still meet at some classes..i mean most of them =)
then waited for dad..
btw..its 15mins from my house to HELP..that is if i have a Car..hope i get 1 soon =P
went home, visited kel..talked about Sunway and HELP
came home..sleep
wake up, bath ,eat, online
see TV
hahah
boring huh?

and tomorrow the real studying starts i think..hahah..i think im having math tom

till my next post
SicX out

p.s HELP pc's are very very very slow..its better to have a note book

Its a new year

2008-12-31T13:03:00.000-08:00

I dint do anything big this new year..well, it never has been big
the house party that i planed got canceled, booked it to late (3 days before new year)..hahah
today, i just went for dinner with parents
after that at 12.00am
went WCG with Daniel..lol
what a way to spend the new year, by playing dota
Friends wanted me to go to the Curve
but i dint want, it will be packed and i dont have to cash

Now, i will tell u guys my new years resolutions

1. Be a better person and a better friend
2. Be a better dancer
3. Study hard at college, dont repeat what i did for SPM !!!
4. Go places with my dance crew
5. Lose weight =)..hahah
6. be a better Dota player..lol
7. Be able to do Baby mills and improve my style in bboying
8. Stay fresh ^^V..im so lame
9. be a better son to my parents
10. Be able to bake my grandmothers fruit cake =)..i so want to learn this,keep the family tradition alive

well..i think thats about all
i just pray i can follow my list and dont screw up my life

thats all for now
SicX out

Silence

2008-12-26T19:57:00.000-08:00

Yes, i cant talk
i can talk, but i sound like a Frog
when i talk, i feel like i have a 1000 needles is in my body
this feeling really sucks

all this started to happen few days ago
i started coughing like crazy
i felt very sleepy
than on Christmas night it started to happen
i felt like i am going to lose my voice
and the next day, it was true
i could not talk !!
damn !!
i hope that i get back my voice soon
i dont want to sound like this !!
like SOHAI !! hahah
now im in Ipoh
going for prayers today night *sigh* boring !!!
i am going to read something a loud
but my voice is gone, and my grand father still wants me to read
like WTF !!!
my voice is gone..how am i going to read??
but i dont give a fuck...im not going to read...at all !!.
never ever

till my next post
SicX out

Not so merry 'O' Christmas

2008-12-25T10:43:00.000-08:00

Sorry dint updated this few days...been in my grandma house for xmas..the net there was down

Christmas this year is not like last year or the years b4...i really dont know why
last time when i was a small kid
i could not wait for Christmas...trying to stay up late and catch santa in the act =)
wishing i get the presents i asked for
eat my grandma's cookies
singing Christmas songs
hahah..that was the good days

now days is just plain boring..
i just feel like i grown older and want something more than material needs =)
hahahah..i need my needs
i dont need presents and shit..i want somebody to share xmas with
some1 to put the Christmas tree with
somebody to drink hot coco with on Christmas eve
well..i just think i got to wait...my dreams can wait..hahah

owh ya...i lost my voice..
seriously...i like lost it
not that bad..i can still talk
but when i talk..it sounds funny..hahah
when i sing..it sounds more funny =P
hope i get better soon

i will be going to Ipoh tomorrow evening..ill try to update...take care !!!
AND HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS

Fresh stuff happened today

2008-12-23T07:43:00.000-08:00

what happened today..lets see
owh ya..i am now a HELP student..hahah..and this time its official =) will be starting on 5jan..wish me luck !!this was in the morning..
after that just sitting at home asking people to go out with and playing DOTa... i wanted to go to pavilion to buy the puma Yo! MTV Rap shoe...
called few people..all said busy,dont wan to come, to far and lazy...hahah
after that call my dance crew member Wingz..he said sure but we had to go at night
went there around 7+...straight went to puma...i saw my dream shoe..but it was to expensive..
i was thinking they had 50% discount on all shoes...but to bad..its only on some shoes =(
well...after that we went to Converse, Nike and Adidas..we saw a nice shoe at Nike..we wanted a high cut shoe
we set out target already..hahah
we went JCO !!..yummy (long time dint eat)
after our dinner..we bought the shoe...and guess what..we both bought the same shoe!!! and the best part is..that there was only 2 PAIRS left !!!
hahaha
it was a Nike DUNK HIGH CUT PREMIUM [limited Edition] ..its rm400
its orange..so now i have 2 orange shoes..lol..its ok, 1 shoe is low cut and 1 shoe is high cut..hahah

NOW I HAVE 14 PAIRS OF SHOES..and its still growing =)

Rock The World 8

2008-12-20T10:01:00.000-08:00

ok..b4 u read this..u must know the meaning of the word Mosh and Mosh pit
MOSH - kick people, hit people, jump on people, dance, release ur anger on people
MOSH PIT - A place where u Mosh

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ok..i had only 3 hours of sleep..cause of Titanic
ill skip all the stupid parts...hahah
at 12 left the house...me, darma and Dave went Stadium Merdeka...
wait..its not in Stadium Merdeka..it was in Secret Garden..hahah..what a name
b4 that..i meet up with Ros aka Ninja Turtle...THIS IS THE 1ST TIME WE SAW EACH OTHER..
hahah...but it was good la...we like straight talked..no diam diam..lol

1st few band were ok..1 college band was sick..they sound like SLIPKNOT
after that i and Ros went outside to have a Chat...i told her a Story of my life..hahah..(Ros- shhhhh)
went in..meet up with the guys..it was kinda boring
but when the sun went down..the rain was pouring..that i when the fun started

OAG !!!!!!!!!!!
yea...we fucking Mosh like shit...
it was cool...i was so stressed up with my life..i just jumped in a mosh pit and
start kicking people..it was fun..hahah

After OAG..some other band...and than i had to send Ros to the monorail
Bittersweet was playing at that time..its ok..im not a fan of them
after that..went back..and just on time..ESTRANGED was on !!!!!!!
i sang my heart out..i love their songs ITU KAMU AND YANG PERNAH
after Estranged played...i Found my Kale's !! =)

the most funny thing is that..my group is the only group of Indians there..all the rest are Malays..and no Chinese..but i dont care...WE LIVE IN PEACE !!!

when all my friends came + my bro....that is when the REAL FUCKING shit MOSH PIT starts...
it was fucking crazy..u should be there..i was not the Hip hop/Bboy SicX...i was the Fucking Rocker SicX...and i loved it =)

KOFFIN KANCER was playing !!!!!!!!..like wtf..the best band to mosh...so, i entered a most pit...1 person kicked my HEAD..its all good....and Kelvin also mosh!!..hahah..yea man, he got balls, a thin person moshing..thats sick...its all about having fun.hahah..this was the time for me to release tension and have fun...but i had like to BABY SIT a few ppl..(personal problem)..its like..i don't want anything bad to happen to my frens and my bro...but i still MOSHED
after all the fun..i found Dave that was missing for along time..he came back with a battle wound..blood on his face and blood on his shirt...hahah...he had some problem with 1 dude..but its all good now...

after that..i wanted to go home..cause im dead tired..
im tension FREE !!!
its good to go for events like this
and im planing to go Next year...anybody with me?

PICTURES !!

Its a lie

2008-12-19T14:14:00.000-08:00

yes..i said it..its a lie..everything i did is a lie..yes..a fucking lie
for the these pass few months..i have been living a lie..thinking that i can get whatever i want
well, things are not sweet every time
few days ago..i was talking with a good fren of mine...
he is elder to me..and i think that its good to talk to elder people
i think this is because that you can learn more from them.
they have lived longer than us and had gone through more things than us

while talking to my fren..i understand that things dont always go ur way
so, dont expect much, dont hope, just let it be, life is about taking chances
forget people that hurt u in life!!! , they just need u when they really want something
throw away friends that hurt your feeling
YOU DONT NEED THEM !!

its 6.20am..yes..its that early
i was seeing Titanic..hahaha..yes, that movie
186minutes of melo-ness..hahah
while seeing the movie
i cant picture my self not as Leonardo!!! , but i picture my self as the BAD GUY... =(
i dont know why..if u still remember the movie..my life is like him, not everything..but me and him, we are under going to same problem =)..almost they same..hahah..u get to picture..

THE STORY GOES LIKE THIS, SIMPLE AND SHORT =)
He loves the girl
Girl hates him
Girl runs away with hot guy
-The End, girl enjoys her life, the bad guy will hate his life-

*SIGH*

2more ...wait..today...ill be going to Rock The World..hahah..i got like only 3 more hours to sleep..so wish me luck =)..ill enjoy my self to the MAX and MOSH like crazy !!..and try to let go of my melo-ness...ahahah

i hope that guy that gave me advice is reading my blog..i thank him so very much..hahah..we shall talk again soon

till then..SicX out

Great lines

2008-12-18T08:49:00.000-08:00

This are the songs that make me feel..hahah..hope u guys enjoy this songs..=)

Baby I'm hot just like an oven
I need some lovin'
And baby, I can't hold it much longer
It's getting stronger and stronger
And when I get that feeling
I want Sexual Healing
Sexual Healing, oh baby
Makes me feel so fine

Sexual Healing - Marvin Gaye

It's like the hardest thing for me to say,
without crackin a smile,
it's somethin that we both really feel inside,
but never talked about,
they call it love oh yes they do,
a dangerous thing when you're part of the game,
so girl I feel you when you get emotional,
and don't wanna let me go,
ha but it's somethin I gotta tell ya

Chris Brown - Gonna be my girl

Today in a breeze I sensed your perfume
But you were nowhere near.
And in reverie,
I felt you holding me.
And even in my dreams I shake from the fear
Of truth being swept away
By the rhythm of the waves I whisper in your ears.

Daphne Loves Dreby - Pollen and Salt

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

K-Ci and Jojo - All my life

I was made for lovin you baby
You were made for lovin me
And I cant get enough of you baby
Can you get enough of me

Kiss - I was made for loving you

Hey pretty baby with the
High heels on
You give me fever
Like Ive never, ever known
Youre just a product of
Loveliness
I like the groove of
Your walk,
Your talk, your dress
I feel your fever
From miles around
Ill pick you up in my car and well paint the town
Just kiss me baby
And tell me twice
That youre the one for me

MJ - The way u make me feel

A mind opener

2008-12-17T07:21:00.000-08:00

today
nth much happen..just sit in the house, stone, use the PC, talking to Faustina and lara
after doing all my stuff
time to go to the studio !!
when i reach the studio..i cant belive my eyes
Jacob( my dance teacher)..was wearing the same pants, shoe and cap as me
we were wearing Dickie's red shorts, echo park red cap and red converse
so now u guys know where i get my style from..hahah =)
Great minds think alike
some of my frens..i mean alot of my frens do not like my style..i think its because its not normal
last time i used to be like everybody else, wear a shirt, blue jeans, white shoes, plain shoes
but after i put my foot in Freedom dance Studio..it changed
and i like it!! ...NOW I HAVE 14 PAIRS OF SHOES( still growing)..and its all full with colour!!
i wore a shirt to MOS, this is just because it will make me look older and blend in the club
cause im underage..hahah
BTW, my teachers crew dances in MOS on Wednesdays and Saturdays...thats so cool!!!
when im with my frens..they hate my shoes..but when im in Freedom..they think my shoes are fresh..hahaha

so from now, ill be my self..my fresh self..hahah..i dont care if u like it or not..its just me..deal with it =)

MY STYLE, MY FLAVOR - BBOY BORN

SicX(no official crew yet) and Jacob(Giller Battle Crew) - Great minds think alike

im an owl...meow meow meow (poem)

2008-12-14T14:33:00.000-08:00

i said meow meow meow because i dont know what owls say..hahah

its 7.10am and i am still not sleepy..
like wtf man..why the hell i cant sleep..i really dont know why..
when i try to sleep..my stupid melo brain keeps thinking about stuff
i think i think to much..hahah
i must know when to stop thinking
looks like i cant sleep..rite?
so now..im going to write a poem =)
im just going to write whatever comes out my little brain of mine.hahah
so, GET READY

BTW..THIS POEM IS NOT ABOUT ME!!..THIS IS MY STYLE OF WRITING..SO DONT GO THINKING WRONG STUFF ABOUT ME....I JUST LIKE WRITING POEMS..HAHAH..IT MIGHT BE GAY AND ALL..BUT EVEN WILLIAM SHACKSPEAR DID IT..HOPE 1 DAY I CAN BE AS GOOD AS HIM..HAHAH..CHEERS TO THAT..btw, in all my poems i did so far..there is a code in it..i think..that's y it means so much..that is what that makes it fresh =)

I was left in this black hole by the person i cared for
And i do get this often, yes i do
Maybe u think im gone melodramatic?
Melodramatic us say?..maybe it is true
It is like, it just only happened, but it ended so fast
Songs of sorrow i hear to heal my wounds
Sing it on a dark day i will
Inspired by the one true love i had
Never to say, but to do i will
Go away i shall to a far place
Along with the sorrows that u gave me
Go go go...go far away..that is what she said to me
I left her with a smile on my face but a scare in my heart
Rum i drank to take away my guilt
Lonely i shall stay the rest of my life

hope u guys like it..give ur opinion..how does it sounds like?

i think i shall go for a swim now..hahah

for now, im done
-SicX-

Its fun being emo sometimes =)

2008-12-13T23:53:00.000-08:00

do u know why its fun to be emo?
its because, for me that is, it makes me think
its like, ur mind goes free..u will think about the past and the future..what u did and what are u going to do
y im i so emo now?..hahah..emo..that word is so normal..i think ill use melodramatic =)
yes, im MELODRAMATIC !!!
i dont know why im like this
wait..i think i do
but i dont know if i should tell u ppl..hahaha
wait..i think i should
ok..but i will tell u guys is code..hahah..cause some ppl are going to read it that might get effected by it..hahah

i think i am missing something that i lost long time ago..few weeks ago..somebody reminded me about that..and it felt good..hahah..
I really dont know wtf im talking about..but that is just me..a fresh melodramatic guy

i think most people get melodramatic it is because they think life is not fair to them..i know alot of people like this..this includes me..hurmm..well, i got to admit it someday
U see now..u say life is unfair to u? u dont get what u want?
at my melodramatic stage..i was thinking..what about kids that have no parents, no food, no place to live, no body to love..u think that their life is fair??..tell me that..i think our life is much better than them..so we cant say that our life sucks
i think..we people with a family should be happy cause we have people to look after us, care for us, to pick us up when we are down
so, i think we should be happy with our life and dont go around saying life sucks..

OMG kel..u gave me that song..now u make me more melodramatic..screw u !!!!!!!!!

being melodramatic is good sometimes..its fun but sometimes u just want to sit down think..it is good to think..open up..cause who knows, u might find something new in ur life =)

F.R.E.S.H.F.U.N

2008-12-12T13:24:00.000-08:00

I fucking dint sleep for 40 hours !!!!!!! like wtf
this is what i did for that 40 hours

Lets see
i woke up at 5pm on Thursday..i was just sitting in my room stoning like shit
my cous came back and said he and Greg are going to MOS..my dad was in johor and mom slept early..i was like, what the hell..IM GOING TO MOS..
Dave and Greg went in early cause they wanted to go in for free..haahha..and the are pass the legal age...damm those ppl..dont worry..1 more year for me =)
owh ya..i saw Kavi and her frens there..i dint know they were coming..then Sundeep, Shaun and KY came..btw..we are all underage..
lucky we had our HK boy Shaun there to help us out =) ..thx Shaun !!
he know ppl that know ppl that knows somebody..hahah
ill skip all the crap..in the end ..we all got in
when i enter the MOS dance floor
i was like WTF !!!!!!!! ...it is so freaking fresh sial...hahah
i think we entered MOS around 12..had to wait for 2 hours..*sigh*
in MOS i danced like krazy..lol
i had a great time !!!
seriously...got to meet new people..bottom line,it was fun
i spent around rm100...we entered for free..but the drinks are fucking expensive..c'mon 23 bucks for 1 shot..i was like dammm..but its all good
the fucked up part is that the stop the music at 3am SHARP !!!
after that we went to the mamak..cause kavi wanted to get air limau..hahah..
after mamak we went KFC..hahah..well, we are Malaysians..what do u think =)
its was 5.30am..i was like WTF..my mom is going to wake up soon and i told her im at the movies..(what movie finishes at 5am..hahah)..
8 ppl had to go in a Satria..we were going to my house..cause the girl had no where else to go..we waited at the pool for awhile..guard chased us away..cause the say ppl are complaning..hahaha..YEA RITE LIKE WE ARE GOING TO BELIVE THAT
went to my house..saw tv for awhile then i and greg walked to girl to get a cab

after that..i dint want to sleep..cause..i know, if i sleep, i will wake up damm late..i mean..very late..after that is all boring stuff nth much..night time i and kel when to genting klang to eat and shisak..Genting Klang has the cheapest and best shisak around..few hours ago i and kel were seeing max payne..its was..erm..its was BORING..hahah..after that stupid movie..we saw ALI G IN DA HOUSE...this movie was fucking fresh..hahah..u should see it..its funny!!..

now im writing my blog..cause long time dint update..and Mr.Kel is playing my PSP (btw, he is bored cause his GF is in HK..kesian him =P)..i think they both are meant for each other..i hope they last a long time..RESPECT..the fight a lot ..but in the end..the get back together..i like him for that..it takes a man to do that...respect..hahah..btw, she is not bad ..lol..props to my main man.(sry for all the hip hop slang..just saw ali g..still in the mood)

owh ya..My cous and gred went to MOS today..fuck them..2 days in MOS..hahaha..lucky them..i just called them and they said they are high so they ask me to call back soon..how long do u want me to wait?..

OMG...its 5.50am..and i am still not sleepy..kel is going to go back soon..i think we can be owls..hhahah..fresh owls..owh ya, more ppl are using the fresh word now..hahaha..im so lame

ok then..this is what i did for 40 hours..a lot of thing huh..
the conclusion is, if u dont sleep for 40hours..u can do alot more things than sleeping for 8 hours a day, the hypothesis is accepted =)

btw..kel and i said..we sleep when the suns come up and wake up when the sun goes down

till my next post..sicx out
ps. pls mind my grammer.i dint sleep for 40 hours..dude!!..what do u think..lazy want to read back..i just wrote what was on my fresh mind

Hahahah..im so lame

2008-12-03T10:23:00.000-08:00

hahaha..i was just reading my OLD blog..and i feel i was so damm fucking lame..haizz..im happy i did a new 1

erm..what to talk about..lets see..
ok..i know!!..im so damm fucking bored..even it is after SPM..live WTF...hahah..but for the pass few days..i have been kinda busy, wait...VERY busy..had been going to the studio almost every day..its nice..feeling the life of a dancer..dancing everyday ...but im still no PRO yet...i will try my very best..never to give up =)

its 2.30 and im not sleepy..now days im sleeping at 4am and waking up at 3pm..hahah..im a bat!!
woot woot
what should i do now..i think ill go and see a Movie..what movie..maybe harry potter..long time dint see...why the hell im i telling u all this...u dont give a shit rite?...yes..i know what u are thinking about..because im Dr.Know...hahah

btw..next Tuesday is Our big day (our meaning the crew)..we must dance on stage with REIZO ZEN..hahah..im so lucky..he is a freaking good dancer..i hope 1 day i can be like him...1 DAY (pause and dreams)

lets recap on pass things..
so far nobody special..thats normal for me
still dint get my lips pierced (maybe next year)
owh ya...im still ur simple guy next door..hahahahah
i like the simple guy next door word..its so..like..erm..how do i put it..its just plain..haiyo..u get the point

BAD news !!!
my cous just told me im not simple guy next door material...FUCK !!!...hahaha

Sometimes also i get left out in the studio..hahah..i think it is because i dont speak chinese..haha..im like the only Indian there..hahah..but i still like it there..i like the people there.. p.s Jacob sometimes can be gay..hahahah..but still super funny (dont tell anybody)

ok la..mau gerak..gua nak pegi tengok "harry potter"...see u guys later...stay fresh sial !!!

Empty

2008-12-01T10:00:00.000-08:00

Empty
what is empty to do with this
empty is the thing in everything
everything is empty
even in a rock..empty is there
that rock u use the throw at ur love 1..yes that rock
the rock is a symbol or the burden that u carry
to make some happy
to do the impossible
wait..im talking crap
yes crap i said
the crap is also known as shit
shit this life
im shitting it because it is lifeless
lifeless is fact that it has no life in life
yes i said it..UR LIFE IS A LIE
what is the reason u live for..
wait..u dont know..u know why..because its a lie
this is just a way for the man to get control
POWER TO THE PEOPLE
back to the topic
EMPTY
to be or not to be is the key to life
life is a black abysses
black like a black hole that never ends
its like the shit hole u see every morning
it never ends!!!
laugh at me?..yes..that is what u are doing
i know...i know everything..thats why they call me Dr.Know
knowing the existence of life and all around it
i will be the Nobel price and be Nobel someday
Nobel enough to kill a cat
"meow meow meow"..that what the cat said to me
i said to him "Fuck you..no body meows at me..Dr.know"
and i kicked the cat and i felt like a MAN
yes...IM A MAN
cause u dont see a lot of people kicking a cat
MEOW MEOW MEOW
thats all it can say
hahahah..i feel like i rule the world
wait..i do rule the world
yes..im Zeus
kings of kings...no body dares to challenge me
well..looks like im king now..so u all have to OBEY me...
yes..i said it OBEY..
i want OBEYness
to be or not to be..
only i can say that
now..for my last act in life.
ill leave this life..to get a better life of lifeless..
MEOW (stabs his self)

So fucking happy school is over

2008-11-26T20:44:00.000-08:00

i have been waiting 5 fucking year for this..u know y?..u fucking hate my school (SMK Seri Titiwangsa).hahah..yes..i said it..i fucking hate it!!...wow...its good to get it of my chest..

You know y?
i think la..its because my group of frens in school are not my type of friends..the only friend that share the same interest in me is why friend Victor..he's the best..hahah...all my other friends are ok..they are nice...but we dont share the same thing..cant talk to them about anything..haizz...and i think i lost a good friend for a stupid reason...he seems less close to me now days..haha...i dont care...im of the college soon =)..*sigh*..other than that..im in a fucking boy school..hahah.my whole fucking life i have been in a boy school..this sucks!!...cant wait to go out of college..to tell u the truth..i feel i have more close frens in other school than in my own school...hahahah..u people might think im a fucked up person..that maybe ture..btw..i got PLKN 2nd batch..im kinda happy..well..thats all i got to say for today..and i more thing..SPM is over..yeah~!!...but i still feel bored sometimes.=(...

till then ppl
SicX out

SPM is 2more...dang....

2008-11-10T05:17:00.000-08:00

SPM is 2more and i am online...WTF am i doing...fuck me!!!....hahaha...2more is BM and sej...im so dead...good luck 2 all my friends that are sitting for SPM...GOOD LUCK mother fuckers !!!!! =)...hope they do well

P.S i dont want to go for NS !!!!!!!!..dang again..

SPM !!!

2008-10-29T09:32:00.000-07:00

SPM is like in a few more days time...12 more days !!

i feel like shit but i am not doing anything about it...i dont know y...most ppl say the same thing...what am i suppose to do??..is it 2 late?

for now..i just cant wait for it to be over...than i am a free man!!...nov 25 i will be a free man...hahaha..cant wait...there are so many thing i am going to do..
I spend most of my time thinking about what to do after SPM..but i am doing nothing to get ready for SPM...*sigh*...hahah..fuck it

MY AFTER SPM TO DO LIST
1. Be a better person
2. Start a new life..no more vinod.."hello SicX"
3. Be a better dancer
4. Find/make a Crew...bboy or hiphop ..anything will do
5. Get ready to go to College at Jan
6. Go jamming
7. Get piercing (at a few places)
8. Maybe get inked
9. Go to langkawai and get waisted
10. SLEEP
11. workout
12. Be a better Bball player..might enter a Team
13. Enjoy!!!
14. See Dexter

hahahah..i got so many things to do after SPM...but not doing anything for SPM.....WTF!!

till then..toodles

PS..i got 666 views on my blog...=)...thats my lucky number..hahahh

Shopping at Bukit Bintang !!!!!!!!!

2008-10-18T06:35:00.000-07:00

Hello friends..today 18/10..myself, Daniel (Couch), Kelvin went on a SHOPPING spree!!! ..hahah..i and kel wanted to buy clothes for Deepavalli...so we went to bukit bintang..i bought 2 beautiful Obey T-shirts..sorry can get the pic..my camera not working..dammm...but trust me..its damm nice....1 T was rm85...but it was worth buying..i always wanted a obey T..wanted to buy 4 but kel and Daniel said don't cause maybe i can buy something else...

on the way to Pavilion we past maybank and saw ppl shuffling...and most of them were kids...*sigh*...kids meaning below 18..late at night...parents these days...hahah..okok..forget about them...

at Pavilion we went to JCo donuts 1st...yummy!!!...can still taste it...after eating...we walk around..i wanted to see some shoes..knowing i am super crazy about shoes...walk into PUMA and saw the love of my life...Puma Basket 68 Print [LIMITED EDITION !!!!] ....when i saw that..i know that shoes is going to be mine..wakakak...it was rm 299...i wanted to buy the Puma YO! MTV Raps high cut shoe..but it was rm399....maybe next time =D...i am really happy with the shoes i bought..that adds up to my collecting and that makes it 13 shoes i own...hahah..i told u it will grow...and STILL growing...

LONG LIVE PUMA

till then guys...hope i got the time to updated about more stuff..

Peace

Tag ur it

2008-10-12T17:01:00.000-07:00

1. The person who tag you is:

Rumput/Grass/The green thing on the ground

2. Your relationship with him/her is:

Friend that i know for kinda a long time...and kinda of my sis

3. Your five impression of him/her:

Smart, Funny, Blur, Green, Lame at times(hahah)

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:

She came for my 15th bday party..hahah

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:

Go and study..=D

6. If he/she become your lover, you will:

I will dance and sing to Micheal Jackson "I wanna Rock with you"..hahah

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:

Nothing...i think

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:

Start a Riot !!!

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:

She dint follow the Force

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:

Buy ice-cream for her

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:

She is "Fresh".

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?

Some hate me..some like me..i dont give a damm..im happy the way i am.

13. The characters you love of yourself are:

I think Big..hahah..go far or dont go at all

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:

Im lazy at time...i mean most of the times

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:

A person that enjoys life..and i wan to live life to the fullest.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:

Waazzz Aaaaaa !!!!!.

17. Pass this quiz to 5 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:

Ninja Turtle...Joshua..Mel..Tata..Mexican

18. Who is no.1 having relationship with?

No1 i think

19. Is no.4 a male or female?

A horny Male

20. If no.3 and 5 are together, will it be a good thing?

Wow..i would love to see this.

22. What is no.2 studying about?

Doing Foundation in HELP

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?

Recently

24. What kind of music band does no.4 like?

I think he like Rock and horny songs

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?

Yea...GRASS !!!

26. Will you woo no.2?

Hahahah

27. How about no.4?

Hhaha..the pussy monster

28. Is no.1 single?

Yea.

29. What is the surname of no.3?

Victor

31. Does no.1 and 5 get along well?

.They dont know each other

32. Where is no.2 studying at?

HELP

33. Talk something casually about no.1:

She is fun to talk to...funny..got style

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.3?

She is my cousin..hahah

35. Where does no.5 live at?

Erm..near jalan genting Klang..near the shop that sells the Hummer..(yeah baby..hummer)

36. What colour does no.2 like?

Maybe indigo?

37. Are no.3 and 1 best friend?

Nope.

38. Does no.3 have any pets?

Dog.

39. Is no.1 the sexiest person in the world?

Hahah...maybe..shes a turtle

40. What is no.5 doing now?

In school...and i am at home..hahahah

Wazz Aaaaa~~~ im back

2008-10-12T16:49:00.000-07:00

long time dint update...been lazy and trials was on..lets recap ok?

My trials was ok..good enough to enter college in jan =D...might be going HELP for foundations in arts...MAYBE...SPM is in 1 more month...wakakak....cant wait for it to be over...but sometimes it gives me a chill down my spine...i think every body that is sitting for SPM will feel this..good luck to all my friends..

Might not be going for PLKN(NS)...im not going to postpone it...i know some people that know some people that work for the "MAN"...hahaha..its good to know ppl....all this is not sure yet..its like 50% only...so i hope for the best la...hope everything goes rite

Im in love!!!!
in love with Rivers Crew from Korea...hahah..the are so sick...love Bboy Physicx and Born...Physicx with his unique moves and Born kills the beat like a PRO...i wish i get to meet them and break with them...i dont care if it was a practice session..i just love them

Erm...what else...

Will be going for kasturi seminar...S16...hope it helps me out in SPM...F-ing hate SEJ and BIO..hope the tips help..cause that is my only help in SEJ..

ok then..there is nth else to say...Tata

wait..1 more thing..

Wazzz Aaaaa !!!!

Going down memory lane

2008-08-27T11:25:00.001-07:00

after reading all my pass post...i see my self...some times being a jackass,loser,fucker...hahah....i have changed from this her april i think...

AND..2 MORE FUCKING MONTHS TO SPM...hahah...and 2 MORE WEEKS FOR TRIALS...OMFG...i am so going to die...2 more weeks for trials and i am in WCG at 2.30 am....i dont know what happen to me...but what the hell...cant wait till its over...

what am i doing here??

playing DOTA =D...mega kill....wakakak...i lost it...

just now at home...i say a movie called "Super High Me"...its like the movie "Super Size Me"...super size me is about a guy eating MCD for 30 days..and stoping for 30days...its nice....

but super high me is even better...he does not SMOKE pot for 30 days and than smokes POT every single day...morning till night...in USA california..they use pot for medical reason...and its LEGAL....i so want to be there....=D...u guys should check it out..i give it a 7/10...a movie worth seeing if u have nth to do...

bye guys..game going to start...peace

I just hate Malaysians..sometimes

2008-08-16T00:52:00.000-07:00

y i hate Malaysians..sometimes??...its because they keep judging who is hot and who is ugly...i dont know why they do this...not like the are the hottest person alive to do this...its like..every body has their own fucking taste...just leave then alone...like maybe this guy really likes this girl...but then..he does not want to make a move because his frens will make fun of him because that girl is ugly or something like that....that so pisses me off...

if that person in fat..so what??...let that person be fat ...u dont have to put pressure on that person...saying.." Ur fat...no body will like you...if u were thinner,maybe she will like u..u will be single the whole life"...FUCK THEM..in Malaysia i think this is a very normal thing....FUCK MALAYSIANS....but i dont think its a big issue in the States or Euro...even fat girl wear a bikini...that shows that they dont care what people say...here in stupid ass malaysia...when a chubby girl wears a mini skirt...everybody will go like ewww....even some of my frens does that...but i just keep my mouth shut and just smile at them...i feel sad for people like that..can u people just leave them alone...they have feelings 2 u know...haizz..what to do...we malaysian are...how do u put it...ah yea...we are just "Malaysia Boleh"...hahah...boleh my ars....

hope after reading this post ..u guys will treat other ppl differently...the are humans just like you...

Fuck you testimonial

2008-08-12T07:43:00.000-07:00

1st in this testimonial...i would like to Fuck PLKN (NS).. for fucking up my holidays after F5...was planing a lot of things to do...but all got fuck by NS....fuck you fuck you....

2nd..i would like to fuck the government for doing this shit...Fuck you again...fuck you...

Why u may ask that i am fucking the PLKN..is because i can kiss my dancing life goodbye. ....many ppl tell me...."u can dance after, its only 3 months" ..i say hell fucking no..cause i want to be a fucking pilot...and i will have no fucking time to dance when i become a pilot...fuck you again for doing that to me....i cant dance now cause parents ask me to stop till SPM is over...now that i got this fucking PLKN...3 god damn fucking months is gone.......and i love so very much to dance...so...fuck you again...ass holes....i calculated...i have around 2 months to dance after my SPM and PLKN...fuck you again...this is so fucking pissing me of...besides dancing..i have lot more things to do...fuck you again

okok..some ppl say PLKN is fun...yea...it can be...but i dont care...i can have my fun dancing...that is so much better....i know there are some good things in PLKN...but i dont give a fuck...i just dont want to fucking go...i think if u were in my shoes..than u will know...1 more time Fuck you...
and i did a pic for PLKN..this are all the ppl that support my cause...fuck you again

Im gonna take ur ass back to Church

2008-08-06T07:07:00.000-07:00

HATE THIS CANS !!!!!!!!

this is my 1st tag after a long time...havent been tagging in a long time almost 2 year...but it is the best among all..i think =)

i did it at Friday afternoon after school at 1.30..it took me around 2 hours to do it...long eh??..im not gonna tell u the place...lol...u will be like WTF if i tell you...i can be put into jail for doing this...that is the risk for doing graffiti...i learned few things doing this tag...dont use the cans i use..they suck...use Nippon(as 667 says)...buy more cans...5 cans was not enough for me..i needed more black and red..wear a mask..and find a clean wall...maybe ill be better next time...lets see..till my next tag...cheers

The Holiday ( 13 hour Dota maraton)

2008-08-01T10:22:00.001-07:00

Last Thursday was my holiday..that what Joseph said..1 day holiday..what i did for my holiday?..i flew from school to a land called Genting Klang..not Genting the casino 1..but Genting Klang...i went there at 7am..wait..we went there at 7am...WE= Me, Daniel Yuan Fai and Joseph...we went to T-bun for 5 hours..Joseph and daniel borrowed me some cash..and now they owe my Rm31..lol..after 5 hours of T-bun..we had lunch than went to WCG infinty for another 5 hours...Wings joined us at WCG...we owned almost every game we played (Warcraft Dota) ^^...after that..went home..played football for awhile..bath, eat...than went back to WCG for another 3 hours...played untill 12am...so..that was my holiday..it was fun =) and i want to do it again soon...lol.

-Peace-

You got to have Soul....

2008-07-28T08:26:00.001-07:00

U Just got to have some soul to do things...live life to the fullest

Graffiti the border between art and vandalism?

2008-07-24T10:08:00.000-07:00

Art is one of the most expressive forms of communication, but some say private property is not the place for individuals to express themselves. Graffiti can be debated as both an art form and a form of vandalism, depending on whom you ask...i just feel that graffiti is art and not vandalism..graffiti turns a dull place into a place with colours..in our country malaysia..there are alot of great artist that master this art..but they dont have a place to display their art..i have always love this art and now i am learning to master it..not that good but getting there..its a expensive hobby..1 can takes u about rm5..for 1 full wall takes u about 6-7 cans...i use the do this at F3 but than i stoped for awhile cause i dint have any feel for it..but now..after seeing my fren 667 doing his art...i felt the urge to continue what i started...i have 1 piece at WCG infinity...at the toilet door..took me about 3-4 mins to do it..it is as my pic that i posted...its nice to do it with frens...late night..running around town with a can in ur hand..tagging any wall that u see...but have to look out for cops =)...ill try keep up this art and get better..ill post the pic in my blog..check it out time 2 time

My best Bday present so far

2008-07-04T09:19:00.001-07:00

Want to know what was my best bday present?...see the pic..dickies work pants!!...i really love it...my uncle got it for me..u cant get it in malaysia..he send it by mail from USA...the feeling was nice when opening it...hahah..1st time getting a package for overseas =D...the smell of new dickies pants is nice...lol..i got 3 pairs...1 red short pants,1 blue short pants and 1 maroon long pants..i love them all....the material of the pants is nice..nice to use for dancing...might get more on ebay but must get some money..next target is ORANGE,YELLOW,GREEN and all the nice colours..heheh =P..thanks uncle

LONG LIVE DICKIES!!!!!

The Law of SicX

2008-06-16T04:39:00.000-07:00

SicX is a man that's obey the law...not any stupid law...i obey.."THE LAW OF SICXNESS"....i promise anybody that lives by this laws to be a very smart person =D..maybe u should give u try...what are this laws??...ill teach u how to obey them....some of u ppl many not know the meaning...but..i have been so kind to help u people out...so..here i go

1st law : What goes around, Comes around
Meaning : when u do something bad...u think u can escape for doing it?..think again...somehow...u will get what u deserve

2nd Law : Bros over Hoes !!
Meaning : Friends come 1st...than only your girlfriend...ur GF might cheat on u...but true friends will always stay true..thug life!! =D..hahah

3rd Law : What goes up, must come down
Meaning : dont be happy when you do something great...some how!!..the MAN will bring u down

4th Law : When u get black, you always want black =)
Meaning : when u try something new..that you never thought it will be nice...u will always want that..i mean always =D

5th Law : Power to the People!
Meaning : Voice out what u have in ur mind..never let good ideas go to waist

6th Law : People=shit
Meaning : PEOPLE = SHIT

7th law : Take from them everything, but give them NOTHING
Meaning : take everything u can get ur hands on...never let anybody get what u want...hold on to it

8th law : Connecting People
Meaning : u know some body to get to know somebody...to know somebody else..get it?...use what u have

9th Law : Just do it
Meaning : Dont wait..it might run away...dont think..just do it

10th law : I am what I am
Meaning : Dont let any1 change what u are...be ur self

this are my 10 laws to be a great person...use this is ur life and u will be great...hahahahahah(i am so lame)....

-SicX-

24 hours with no sleep

2008-06-05T07:07:00.001-07:00

DUDES!!!..sorry for the long time dint update the blog..been busy with stuff and i had like nothing to write about..24 hours with no sleep u may ask?...yes..24 goddamn hours..i dint sleep cause i went to WCG with Daniel...the sohai 1 =)...played DOTA....*GODLIKE* =)...we played until about 5.10am...took a cab home...reach home..i dint want to sleep...cause i know, if i sleep..ill wake up at 12+...and i had to go for footsal at 10am...what did i do?...used the PC..see movies...and owh ya...try some windmills...i think i am getting better...practice makes perfect...=p..footsal was fun ..play for about like 2.30 hours...clowned soon people...and got clown by some ppl...its ALL HOOD...for lunch SicX(Me), K Fed(Kelvin), and Mexican(Sukhvir) went for KFC...when i reach home..bath,eat,sleep...slept at 1.30 and woke up at 10.00...cool shit!!...now what is SicX doing?..he is going to have his dinner...bye my brothers and sisters..see ya'll on the flip side

Bananas, try a Banana before it is to late

2008-05-20T08:21:00.000-07:00

i was bored..nth to do..and this was only thing that was on my little complex brain of mine

Bananas..why are they so complicated?...why?..i really want to know?..u people might think i am going loco here...but..some how...it does make sense...only to me i think..well shall we start now...

Bananas..what to talk about them??...they are very complex things..that i can tell u..but some how..it is very hard to find the right 1 for u...now days..bananas are very hard to find, the good 1s i mean..everybody will find their banana..if they are looking for banana...some people like different fruits..but i like bananas..i dont know why~~..they just,how do i put it?...they just make me go high =D...i like bananas cause i am sick and tired of tasting the same old fruit and i need something "FRESH"...but as i tried bananas...it tasted nice..but it had an after effect..that will hurt u in the morning...u might not like ur 1st banana..u got to look around for the right 1...the 1 i just had..it was not that good..but it was nice..hahah...it will be hard forgetting my 1st banana..but u have to try new 1s...hahah....at this point of my post...u might think i am on drugs or just had booze...hahahah...this might be true..now days..u dont know what to belive =D....lets continue...bananas~~ yummy..never got to really taste my 1st banana..it was just to sour..not sweet enough for my tooth..maybe for others but not mine..its expensive to...heheh..they are tropical fruits...i dont know what am i talking about..but this post is meant to be cocky...is cocky even a word?correct me on this...i done a survey and found that Malaysia has very tasty bananas..but it will be hard to find...u need to know people that know people that kill people...DIG !!...hahah...maybe u can get them the easy way..that is by eBay...U CAN BUY ANYTHING ON EBAY!!!...they might even sell old smelly bananas and maybe u might be able to find fresh bananas... come cheap as an apple or an pear..remember..bananas are

i know i know..after reading this far...i know what is on ur mind...u wan a BANANA...rite??..dont lie to me..i know everything....

Lesson learned...Bananas are very complex fruits and must be handle with care...treat them good and they will do the same to u...so~~~i think u must not go for bananas...it will just give u...ah~~..give u pain..hahah

P.S pls dont think this is a HORNY post.i dont mean that thing~~~..if u know what i am talking about u PERVS....it is just a Fruit...dont be a Perve and change the meaning..hahah

PSP is the only way to go

2008-05-19T06:01:00.000-07:00

so sorry dint update the blog for a long time ya...had lot of stuff up my little mind and alot of problems...but now everything is ok...i think...i hope so =)

what to talk about..hmm~~ i also not sure..i guess i lost my touch..hhahah..jk

owh ya..

i just bought my PSP =D and now i am going to tell u why u should get a PSP...hahah

WHY U SHOULD GET A PSP??
1.U can play games..and the graphics is very good..u should try tekken...i think its better than the PS2...
2. u can play songs
3. u can see movies
4. u can go online a surf the net..EXP mails,blogs,sites
5. u can use MSN..i not sure how to do it now..but i know it is possible =)
6. imagine carrying ur PS2 around ^.^

PSP vs iPod
PSP is better than an iPod if u ask me..cause with an iPod,you can only play songs and movies...you can do that in a PSP also rite?...the only thing iPod has that PSP does not have is that the iPod has very big memory...but..dont tell me u are going to use all the memory and listen to all the song??...PSP can handle about up to 8GB i think...i think that will be way enough to keep songs and movies..and a PSP will be way cheaper than and iPod

if u are a serious gamer..i think u should get it..the only bad thing i see in the PSP is the low memory...the new games takes up alot of space..around 1GB per game...but last time PSP only could handle 4GB memory..now 8GB...maybe it will be more in the future???...who knows?besides that the low battery of the PSP...it does not live for a long time..hahaha..hope SONY will solve this problem..

SicX PSP review.....i give it a 8/10...worth buying if ur into games

Tag, ur it !!!!

2008-05-09T21:55:00.001-07:00

TAGGED by Joshua aka mojo jojo

1)What is the most important thing in your life?

Money, dancing, friends

2)Will you consider a sexual relationship before marriage?

hahah..yea sure..why not =D

3)Do you drink?

sometimes..not always..with friend only.i know how to control..hahah

4)What is the latest gadget that you own?

my phone that i just lost w850i

5)Who did you mostly test yesterday?

nobody

6)How old are you& are you a virgin?

17 and a virgin.

7)What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?

My Converse shoes.

8)Where do you wish to get married?

anywhere will do..as long i am with the person that i love

9)How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?

i really dont know...only time will tell

10)How many kids do you want?

1 and twins would be fun

11)Are you in love with someone ?

think so..but its complicated..its like a 1 side love thing

12)Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?

Station 1

13)Name the lastest book that you bought?

Xgames

14)What is your full name?

Vinod a/l Chandra Kumar

15)Do you believe in GOD?

Yeah

16)Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.

Cristiano Ronaldo

17) Christina or Britney?

Britney..the old britney

18)Do you do your laundry?

nope.. =)..im still 17

19)The most exciting place you want to go

Amsterdam...yea baby!!..u know why i like it...=)

20) Are u in a relationship?

Nope

21)Hugs or Kisses?

Both =D

22)Single or attached?

Single

23)Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.

Funny, Horny at times..hahah, cool, good to look for if u need advice, smart

8 Things I say too often:

509, what the fuck, i know, *sigh*

8Thing I’m passionate about:

dancing

8 Books I’ve read recently:

Konserto terakhir =.='''

8Songs I could list to over and over again:

Samsons - kenangan terindah
Chris Brown - say goodbye, with u
Justin timberlake - My love
Slipknot - Poeple = shit, hertic anthem, spit it out
Linkin park - almost all their songs =)

Lot more la..lazy

8 Things I learned last year:

How to dance
How to "FLY"
How to be a better friend
How to do add math (but still not good at it)
How to play tennis
How to make my teachers angry
How to write nice storys
How to...erm~~ i dont remember...

6 People to tag

Sukhvir aka Mexican

Ros aka Rumput

Ros aka Ninja turtle

Melissa

Boey

Tata

so GO UPDATE NOW!

He said, She said part2

2008-05-09T08:28:00.000-07:00

ok now..i decided to make the part2 of my play..it was to short anyway...lets go with the sad ending..if i go with the happy ending it wont be any fun..we all wan drama!!!..ok?..shall we begin..

he was eating alone after she left him all alone...they were not that close as they use to be...well,lets start 2 years after that...he change after that incident...his attitude,looks,they way he looks at life...he kept his hair long..fringe hair..bought a old Chevy Camaro SS...yellow colour with black racing strips =D ...they dint keep in contact for a long time...but faith made them meet at collage...they went to study biochemical science of Geo energy (i really dont know what is that..it just sounds nice..hahah )

1st day of collage life

He said : who is that?...she looks familiar...is that?..no it cant be...is it her?(he speaks in his mind)

he went to that person to make sure if that she is who she is

He said : hey there, do i know you?..u have a very familiar face
She said : i am not sure(trys to recall) OMG...its u!!!..what brings u here??
He said : its collage..i came to study..that's what u do in collage rite??..hahah
She said : hahah..yea..stupid me
He said : so,hows everything going on with u?
She said : its ok...i have my ups and downs but ill make it =)

A guy came to her and grab her from behind

Mexican : Hey sexy...guess who's this?
She said : hey!!..its you..where have u been all day..i have been looking everywhere for u
Mexican : im a busy man...ppl to see,things to do...(gives her a kiss on the chicks)
She said : guys~~~nvr have time for the more important things in life..like me..heheh
Mexican : dont say that baby...u are my no.1 and always will be...btw...who's this??
She said : owh...so sorry..this is my old class mate from high school..
He said : sup,im ****, and u are?
Mexican : u can call me Mexican, im her guy
He said : i can see that
She said : Mexican,we are late for class...we better hurry
Mexican : sure baby....see ya dude -peace-
He said : erm..okie~~~bye

after few weeks at collage, seeing her at class almost everyday,his feelings for her is starting to haunt him once again...but some how,they got closer again..like old times..but she thought he moved on and forgot about her

At the collage canteen

He had lunch with her 1day...they sat together

He said : hows collage life going?..is it all u ever wanted?
She said : not all i ever wanted..=)
He said : how are u and Mexican getting alone..u both look happy together
She said : we both are fine...he is..erm,how do u put it..not like other guys
He said : good for you..u found the guy of ur dreams
She said : well...nobody's perfect
He said : you are perfect(speaks softly)
She said :what u said??
He said : hows the weather? =)
She said : OMG..not again....
He said : relax girl...just wanted to make u angry =P
She said : u are still stupid at times u know...hahahah
He said : yea yea ..i know...so what makes Mexican so special?
She said : well..he is everything..he is hot,kind,sweet...and he has a DONKEY
He said : a donkey??
She said : Yea!!!..that what makes him hot
He said : i see..girls~~~u will never understand them
She said : hey!!!...that's y its hard for u to get 1 =P

From a distance, they see Mexican flirting with a hot Latina chick...wait...he was flinging her...

She said : i i i i got to go..i dont feel rite

Before he got a chance to say anything...she ran away with tears on her face...he felt angry with what Mexican did to her...with the rage in his body,he went to Mexican

He said : woi!!!..what do u think u are doing
Mexican : wtf is ur problem ?
He said : u making out with that girl,that's my problem
Mexican : whats that got to do with u...y do u care??
He said : u hurt my friend, u made her cry, call ur self her boyfriend
Mexican : like i care...

Mexican walks away. he grabs the Mexican and punch on his face

Mexican : u better watch ur back punk!!
He said : what can u do to me...ask ur donkey to kick me??
Mexican : u just wait and see!!

after that incident...Mexican went to her and explain everything to her....it seems that the hot Latina chick was his cousin...he said that is how they greet people in Mexico (yea rite...and i am the king on England)...she belived what he said... she dint want to leave him cause she has the fear that nobody will love her again..Mexican told her what happen that day when **** talked with him...Mexican told her that he took a iron rod and whack his donkey..hahah..she was mad at him for doing that

AFTER CLASS THE NEXT DAY

She said : we need to talk
He said : sure..wait~~are u ok from what happen yesterday?
She said : don't go changing the topic..why did u whack Mexicans donkey??
He said : i did what??
She said : don't act dumb with me
He said : i dint do anything..i was just standing up for u
She said : Mexican told me everything...u are just jealous u don't have me
He said : what u said??
She said : u are jealous!!..
He said : fine!!!...ill never disturb u again

He walk away looking very angry...but deep inside his heart..he felt sad and hurt..he dint know what to do

that very night..Mexican and her went out for dinner...Mexican told her they cant go on being together..he told her that he has another girl...she was sad..she felt hurt and dint know what to do...she saw that girl that Mexican likes...and that girl was that hot Latina chick..she felt used..she needed somebody to talk to..she wanted to say sorry to her old high school friend for what she said to him..she looked everywhere for him...but could not find him.....she remember,his fav spot at collage..the collage roof top...

he was at the roof top..he was going to kill his self..going to take that leap of faith by jumping down...he felt that nobody cared for him...his life was meaning less...there is no point of living...the only person that he cares for does not give a damn about him...so,wheres the point of living....he was going to take that jump.....1 more step...

A girl shouted : wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he turned around to see who was that...it was her

He said : what do u want now?.
She said : u were right..he cheated on me
He said : owh really~~~~
She said : i got to tell u something
He said : better make it fast...im busy.
She said : all this time at collage...i felt happy,i felt save...i thought Mexican made me feel that way...but i was wrong..it was u
He said : what?
She said : i love u!!!

the light in his heart was starting to light up once again...he was walking to her...to tell her how he felt about her...but......he tripped on a wire...he fell down from the building...bang!!!..a loud sound was heard all around campus...she ran down and found his body on the floor with a smile on his face...she cryed...and never stoped crying...she dint know how he felt for her..she thought he moved on..and forgot all about her...she dint know that he still likes her and cares for her

it was kinda ironic how he died....its sad....

after that day....she never loved again...he stole her heart that day he fell down

He said, She said

2008-05-06T07:07:00.000-07:00

I decided to write this play after listening to the song He said, She said...hahaha...any body wants to act in this play??...i am finding actors and actress...i am going to go to Broadway...muahahah..care to join me??

He said : Do i see an angel in front of me
She said : hey!!! (giggles)thank you very much =) ..dint see you there
He said : how's the weather?
She said : ah???
He said : Nth
She said : okie~~....so, what brings u here?
He said : nth much,just came to hang out and meet some ppl
She said : i see~~,who may that person be?
He said : ppl la...somebody that i really like..heheh
She said : cool..do i know that special person?
He said : yea..i think you know her very well
She said : who who?..tell me..plsss.. =)
He said : erm....she is~~....nah~~....dont want to tell you..ill tell u soon when u are ready
She said : hurm~~~~ (looks away)
He said : come on, dont be like that...i hate it when u are sad..u have beautiful eyes u know.
She said : hahah...u are a real flirt!!..do u know that?!?!
He said : erm...i don't think so.... =D

they went their separates ways after talking

After 2 day, they went out together, somewhere in KL

He said : So,what do u want to do now?
She said : erm, I'm kinda hungry,lets go somewhere to eat, ur pick
He said : lets see~~~ ok lets got to *****
She said : ok sure, ur treat rite? =)
He said : what the?...hahaha..ok sure...next time its ur turn
She said : hahaha..whatever =D

At the shop

He said : how's the weather?
She said : whats up with u and the weather?? i am not the weatherman u know
He said : hahaha..i dint know that
She said : ur stupid at times =.=
He said : so hows everything going on with ur life..love life =)
She said : i am not going to tell you until u tell me who is that special person...=P
He said :(should i tell her??) ...wait..i have to make a call!!(he wants to make the great escape)
She said : nonono..sit down... tell me 1st than go
He said : *sigh*~~...dont get shocked ok?
She said : sure...what could go wrong?
He said : that girl (pause) is YOU
She said : i beg ur pardon?
He said : yea u
She said : y?..it so sudden...what made u like me?..im not the special
He said : that's where u are wrong...u are special...u make me feel happy..u make me feel special..nobody else does that to me..i don't know why..i cant control my feelings..i just like you..i don't care if u reject me or not..i just want to let u know..that i care for u and always will be there for u no matter what..

i made 2 endings...u pick which 1 do u like...hahah

SAD ENDING
She said : i am so sorry if i showed u signs that i like u..i dint mean to do that...
He said : its ok,i understand
She said : erm~~i dont we can be more than friends..i dont feel the same way that u do..its so sudden....and...i like another guy...i have been liking him quite a while..i really feel for him..im so sorry~~
He said : no problem...i expected to get that answer..u wanted to know who i like rite..so i told u
She said : im so sorry if i hurt ur feelings...
He said : its ok..dont worry..ill be ok
moment of slience~~~
She said : hey i got to go...i just remembered that i had something to do
He said : ok sure, better hurry... =)
She said : ok..see you soon
He said : bye..

The food came..he sat all alone and ate his food...they were not as close as the use to be after that convo..everything changed.....he moved on with his life..but deep inside...he still liked her

HAPPY ENDING
She said : wow...thats really a shock to me..i dint expected u to say that
He said : hahah..i told u rite you will get a shocked
She said : u are a real nice guy u know?..u helped me when i need somebody to comfort me...and and...(pause)..i think i also kinda like u (she speaks softly)
He said : i beg ur pardon??
She said : i like u...
He said : really?..but but..u dint like showed me any signs that u liked me...
She said : i was confused..i also dint know that u liked me..so i dint want to push u..but something i do give u signs...= )
He said : yea..u do..sometimes~~...thats y i also was not that confident
She said : u are a real great guy
He said : i am was a half..i needed you to be a full
She said : hahaha..u ah...still a flirt =)

The food came...they ate with a smile on their faces...after that, they went for a movie and their life changed...the were happy together...their friends were shock with the news...but they dint care what their friends said

so...what ending do u like??for me...i dont know..anything will do..

What if we live in a WWS

2008-05-02T23:35:00.000-07:00

What if we live in a WWS (World without Strangers)...what would it be like??...there are good things and bad thing to it...but for me...i prefer to not live in a WWS...

THE GOOD THINGS

u wont be shy to anybody...u will know everybody rite...u wont be shy to talk to a person that u like
u will be free to do anything cause u know everybody
in case u are in need of help...u can ask anybody for help
we will live in a world of peace and harmony..no fighting (Cool ah)...u can get free stuff =D...usually frens will give u things rite??..if the whole world is ur fren...u will be getting things every time
i think they police officers will be less..cause not much crimes will happen...dont tell me u want to do something bad to ur fren??
u will be going to PARTY'S everyday!!! woot woot

THE BAD THINGS

When u are going to do something bad that u dont want anybody to know...u will be like looking around seeing if anybody is looking...cause if 1 person sees u...that means the WHOLE WORLD will know what u did...imagine, u do 1 bad thing..the whole world knows and ur name will be spoil for ever!!!....hahahah
wheres the fun of getting to know new ppl..the most fun part of getting in a relationship is the journey to that relationship
And u will know a lot of ppl with the same name as u...like when somebody calls ur name...it might be u..or it might be somebody else
Wont have any privacy in ur life..cant do stupid things in public
u will have to talk to everybody u see...cause everybody that passes by u, u will greet them..i will be to lazy to greet everybody
u will have to spend a lot of money..cause..everytime somebody calls u for his/her bday party..u will have to give that person a gift

that's all i got to say...so now..its ur choice in what world do u want to live in?...there are good and bad thing..so..what would it be??

National Achievers Congress

2008-04-27T22:31:00.000-07:00

on 26~27 April 2008 i attended the National Achievers Congress at KL convention center..it was great...learned a lot of things...the theme was "How to create more money, love and happiness in your life"...they were a lot of great speakers there...1 of the speaker was a guy that made $200m on eBay(making that much money on eBay??..like wth!!)...1 more speaker,this is the best of them all i think..his name is Joe Girard,he is a salesman...he sells at average 6 cars per day!!...a normal car sales man will sell only about 6 cars per month..but this guy sells 6 per day...its a miracle how he did it...this course had open my eyes, now i am going to save for the future..i got my idea on what to invest but i am not going to tell anybody(u cant steal my million dollar idea =D)..they teach u how to invest in your savings and earn more money..but mainly, the all talk about MONEY...so its like money money money for them...hahah..i really recommend you readers to go for it next year..its a every year thing...if u are interested in business, finance, stocks...this is the place to be...i might be going again next year..anybody care to join me?? =)

April 26

2008-04-26T03:14:00.000-07:00

last year April 26 was a great day...it was the day i entered Freedom Dance Studio!! woot woot...it has been 1 year..wow...that was long??..but it was so much fun...made a lot of friends...Love every single 1 of them...they all are a big part in my life....for me..Freedom is like a big family of dancers....a place where the all meet,hang and chill...with their ups and downs....lot of conflict happen in there 2 =)....owh ya, for got to tell ya about the teacher there....he is Jacob...real talented person...he is from Giller battle crew.....the freedom crew is called element crew...all of them also like shit ass funny =D....can start their own jackass!!!...besides ELC..there is Temptation crew!!...the best crew in the world!!!(hahahah)...I WISH..this is the crew that i and my class mates went for out 1st dance competition...T-hop dance master....we dint do that well....come on, it was our 1st comp =)..we will do better next time...PROMISE...practice makes perfect..i wont let anything stop me going for class..i think in that whole year..only missed 1 time...that was because had to go back to hometown...that shows how much i love my class...

besides that, on 26 April was the day i got together with my 1st gf...it was fun....great experience...we had a lot of fun together...but after a while...my feelings for her started to get less...i really dont know why...but it just happen..we were together for 6 months...i cant control my feelings u see...i cant just tell them to stop doing that...i dint wan to hurt her more by still being together while she only gives me the love and she doesnt get it back...get the point??..i dint want to cheat on her...so i just had to tell her...it ended up in a phone call..i am really really really sorry if i hurt ur feelings...we are still friends now..hope we get to go out soon

Mix relationships should not be an issue in Malaysia

2008-04-23T07:45:00.000-07:00

Mix relationships should not be an issue in the 21st century...the religion of Christianity and Islam,Buddhism and Hinduism are almost alike...there are not much difference between them...and they say people in the 21st century must be open minded??...i dont see that happening!!...we should not repeat the past...so what if they are black,white,brown,yellow..it does not really matter...as long as u belive in God...we all belive in god..thats the main thing...does matter if u are christian islam or what ever...

now lets come to the main point of my post...

last time..long time ago...it is a bad thing if u marry a person from a different religion...it may be even be called a SIN and give a bad name to ur family..but this is the 21st century..we should change...we have seen a massive change from the past...they are alot of mix couples now days..

We all know Malaysia is a multi racial country rite????..we have Malays Indians Chinese..but here in Malaysia most teens dont like being in mix relationships for stupid reason....I MEAN REALLY STUPID REASON...1st reason is because of the difference in colour....i got a fren who is quite close with this girl..1 day..that girl confessed to him..he said NO..i ask him why you said no??..he said..."i dont want to get together with her because she is a different colour(meaning different race)"...i was like WTF....what a stupid reason...i cant blame him...it is just how he was brought up...other than that..the pressure that is given by thier peers..i got a cousin...he got together with a Chinese girl...they broke up after few months because her frens kept teasing her because she got together with an Indian...even my parents said its better u get married to an Indian...i would be like ok ok ok...so they stop bugging me..heheh...but deep inside me...i really dont give a F***...as long as i love that person....i dont care if she is Black or White....that is the meaning of love people....u love some1 for who they are...not for thier colour or race...this has been a big issue until some people are scared to confess to that person because of the fear that the person will reject you because of colour....I hope this post will open ur eyes about mix relationships..hope u people will change ur self after reading this...

Sicx out

Giving up hope

2008-04-21T06:37:00.000-07:00

Giving up hope??..i am giving up hope on pursuing for her...i think it is useless...pointless...meaningless...at the rate that i am going in..i will get no where...and i feel I AM going no where...frens say think positive...she will come to know about you...but i am trying everything..i mean everything...and i see no results...besides that, she treats my like TRASH..i dont know what should i do...i have been trying for like 7 ****ing months...7 months!!!....and she still treats me the same way...."she does to me what i do to other girls"...now i know how does it feel to be treated like trash..i think this is gods way of telling me to be a better person..WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND...and they are few other reason i think i should give up...its stupid reason that should be treated maturely...i am going to see her soon and i will try my best to just be friends...nothing more...cause it will take me no where...it will just lead to nights of me thinking about her...having dreams about her...the simplest dreams...but it means alot to me...that are the dreams that make me try harder...i think dreams are a way of telling our self to try harder...that is what i think..but every time i tell me self to give up...i keep on trying after few days...she does the littlest things that make me feel happy...she is doing it in a friendly manner i know,but i feel it means a lot...all this is just false hope..she is giving me false hope..hahah...Friends, if u read this..pls help me forget about her by stop talking about her 2 me...Please..

Love me babies

2008-04-20T00:29:00.000-07:00

I very much love them...they mean a lot to me...i wont give them up....u all might think what am i talking about...well..i am talking about my shoes!!!...my lovely shoes!!!....many people think i am crazy...well..i think i AM...hahahah...dont know why, recently...i got a liking for shoes...all types..dont care what brand...as long as they are nice...now i got 10 pairs!!!..i am planing to buy more...and never stop....muahahahaha....parents kill me everytime i get a new pair...but i dont give a ****...as long i am happy...my next shoe on my mind is Everlast low cut shoe and maybe a adidas...i dont have an adidas T.T....i am not showing off or anything...this is MY blog...so ill write about my life =D...and shoes is a big part of my life...bala~baBaBA i'm lovin it....

Sajak untukmu

2008-04-17T23:34:00.000-07:00

Recently i got this liking for writing..i don't know ever u can call this a poem...some ppl say it doesn't rhyme...but i don't give a shit...so this is my poem....this i what on my mind rite now if u guys want to know..that is what inspire me to write this...it isn't any good...but everybody has to start some where..i wrote this while i was at kasturi..hahaha..lame rite.....i still haven't got a tittle for it..i guess u can call it anything u want...i hope that person that i meant in this poem reads this...hope she gets the meaning..hope she doesn't get angry...hope she will get touched...hope she will like it...hope her eyes will open after reading this poem..hope she will call me after reading this..but that person will never know it is for her....if only she can really she the meaning to this poem...if only....

before we meet, i was lost.
on the day i lay my eyes on u, i had a reason to live.
enough to fill my heart with joy.
y is it so hard for u to see that i am ur Guardian angel.
i will prove to you, that im not like the rest
like it or not, u know u cud always count on me when ur down
or for whatever reason, just know, ill always be there 4 u
vanish? never!!thats not something i intend to do.
eternal happiness we will get when were together.
y cant u see that ur the one my heart desires.
only u, and no other girl can make me feel the way i feel
u and I are meant to be, if only u could see what i see........

-SicX™-

We all wear a Mask

2008-04-15T07:53:00.000-07:00

WE wear the mask that grins and lies, It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,— This debt we pay to human guile; With torn and bleeding hearts we smile, And mouth with myriad subtleties.

Why should the world be over-wise,
In counting all our tears and sighs?
Nay, let them only see us, while
We wear the mask.

We smile, but, O great Christ, our cries To thee from tortured souls arise. We sing, but oh the clay is vile Beneath our feet, and long the mile; But let the world dream otherwise, We wear the mask!

Wearing a mask to me brings the meaning that we will change our self when we are with different types of people....i think most of us wear a mask when we are with different types of people but we wont notice it...for example..like when we are with this group of frens...we will change our self to fit in...than when we move to a different group...we will put on another mask....people dont wan to be their self cause they might think they wont fit in and people will think that they are "freaky"...i know this person...he likes a girl called Y...when he is with this girl...he will totally change his attitude...he wont be his self...well...i think this is no use...cause..if Y falls in love with him...SHE WILL FALL I LOVE WITH THE GUY IN THE MASK ....than...after awhile in the relationship..Y will find out his true colours and wont like him cause she feel in love with the guy in the mask...i am not pointing fingers at any1...i am just saying...just be your self cause there is only 1 "YOU" in the whole world..everybody is special...everybody has their on thing that makes them for who they are...i just hope...after reading this..u will all throw ur mask and just be you self....dont be a fucking poser just to get in a group of people that u think are cool...start your own thing!!!...hahaha...to tell u the truth...even i wear a mask...after thinking about it...i am trying to change my self...i know it is hard taking the mask out....but we just got to do it....change for the better good =)

A new leaf

2008-04-13T00:18:00.001-07:00

i stoped blogging for a long time..i am going to start back from where i stoped..where did i stop at??...well...i also got no idea...

what am i doing now??
waiting for my tution teacher to come...and i dont think he is coming...i have been waiting for 1 hour +..ahhahah

owh ya...last thursday i went for debate at Seri Ampang..it wan fun..get to skip school!!...meet new people and see old friends...saw my cous there..she was in the CBN team...i think they are good...that is what people say...but titiwangsa is better...hehehe...(must atleast give some support rite? ^.^)...i think we fought SriRampai...i think...we had an easy match back there...they were 1st year debaters and they were young...so we got an easy win...not quite sure when is our next match..cant wait!!!(get to skip school again)...hahahahah...after debate...went to school...stayed for bio for awhile(OMG..just remember i had Bio peka)..

well thats all i got to say...there isint any more... -Peace-